Why me?

Hello,i have read this message board for two weeks now since my op and i would like to share my story.

It may be a bit long but it will help me to share it and especially to people who understand.

I have a DD who is 3 in may … she was a beut surprise and had no real problems in pregnancy. We decided after the new year to try for our second.I am afraid I decided to just go with the flow if it happened it happened but as i have irregular periods i never know when i may ovulate. Early march i thought i got what was a really long period thinking to myself this is odd and more heavy. Then I started to spot for a few days and then I thought after a week or so this is really peculiar.

I rang nhs direct who advised could i be miscarrying but i thought no cos ive just had a period. anyway, went to my gp as emergency appt. who got a positive pregnancy test but told me i was prob miscarrying and go to epac next morning.now this may sound weird but my glass was half full and i was excited to be pregnant.

at the epac my partner came with me we looked strangely at each other when the sonographer came up to each woman and myself asking in full earshot why u here, how long you preg, how long you bleeding, so i knew everybodys business. I am a nurse and confidentiality is very important and so my impressions of this place went down hill.

13/3

The u/s showed nil, (may have been early preg) so they did my b-hcg, and would call me later after 5 at home. they didnt.i went to work next day only symptoms being bleeding, tired, not feeling particularly pregnant but keen to know results. at work got hold of someone at hospital who told me come back next day my levels were 700.

15/3

had levels taken, expected phone call at 18.oo at 20.00 rang ward to chase dr. at 21.30 i decided on a bath and phone rang told levels 1000 may be missed miscarriage, may be a preg that may go fullterm with bleeding or it s ectopic but make sure a driver is around in case of need to go to hospital. come back next day for u/s a bit scared now.

16/3

at hospital epac nurse in charge saying i am complex case, still bleeding positive pregnancy test, rising levels, went for u/s lying on plinth and sonographer starting to shake her head refused to do u/s as only few days since last one. thus a consultant sent for -who told me not to worry that it was not an ectopic far too well for that but to continue as normal.i was pregnant but i would miscarry at some stage.however do a test next week to see

I cried in the car park with DH but determined we would have another.

17/3-20/3

started to feel pregnant over next few days but also the low ache in abdo, - weird, still bleeding but not heavy.went to work told them what was happening, had joy inside when someone said their daughter bled all the way through pregnancy and all were fine.

21/3

pos preg test

22/3

went to epac 09.00, sister of unit did preg test pos, spoke to dr. did u/s something seen but sonographer thought it may be cyst in right side. then told by sister not looking good need to do levels again (11.00) cannot leave hospital in case is ectopic, levels wont be back til 17.00. in meantime sorted DD for babysitting and work,so worried,sick feeling. Nothing to do in hospital cannot even eat as advised may need urgent surgery. levels back earlier 2700.

ectopic of right fallopian tube 1,5cm … would not believe dr as consultant last week told me it would not be. spoke to another consultant who confirmed and gave me options of surgery or methotrexate. I chose surgery after talks with DH. some dr told me later this was better option as levels and size were big! well dont give me option then.

admitted and would you believe started symptoms of lower abdo. pain, bleeding plusplus. shocking night. early 23/3 early morning to go to theatre, seen by dr who was to do surgery who had my left tube written on my consent instead of right so had to practically get totally irate about her changing it as she was sa ying she would not know until she did laparoscopy which one and sometimes its hard to tell,well the u/s said right, any how agreed to one tube only being removed. petrified . then she said she could not repair it as they do not do that anymore the consultant told me the day before they did but i was so up in arms that i did not go potty about that. just hoped that one tube and the right one would be taken.

surgery went fine and the ep has gone to histology. i went home next day, and had a rough week of sadness. went back to work after 2 weeks and that was a bit tough but in the swing now.

keeping in touch with this site to get support x thank you