hello people,
i’m not quite sure where to join and introduce myself, but am having a wee wobble and you seem like a nice bunch (have been lurking for a little while). been ttc for 18 months now, first bfp in april diagnosed as ectopic. had my right tube out on may 16th and felt like i was coping admirably, showing my fancy scars and being pretty upbeat about dh’s wrigglers having a crappy sense of direction, etc, etc. anyhoo, now it’s not so funny and am winding myself up into a tizzy. on top of the ep stuff, am about to find out if am being made redundant, a house we were about to buy fell through and everything is just going a bit wrong. i’m fast approaching 35 (in september) and the recent press on how my ovaries will cease up as a happybirthday hasn’t helped. dh even valiantly researched the ivf practices in the borough we want to move to and reported that their provision was ‘brilliant’. alas, he’d mixed the columns up and instead of ttc 1 year and 3 goes at ivf, it’s ttc 3 years and one go. not so good! my very good friend has just reported that she’s 12 weeks after a ‘mistake’ with a guy she’s been seeing for 4 months and i really wanted to punch her. can’t bear the thought of her teenage disregard for contraception becoming the bump that i should be getting now too. ugh. have been monitoring temps and cm, doing opk and nothing. af arrived this morning and am in a right ole mood.
yikes, promise i won’t always be so moany.
emily x