I have a 16 years old daughter who I struggled for over a year to conceive and when I did I was so happy. After years of trying again it never happened. I always wanted a large family and not being able to give me daughter a sibling I felt I had let her down. I split up with her father and got over the fact I’d never have another baby. Afew years later I met someone else and was so happy to find love again. I fell pregnant which was a real shock to the both of us but we were so so happy we were starting a family together. January this year I had an ectopic pregnancy and my whole world came crashing down we were left absolutely devastated. To not falling pregnant for many years then all of a sudden finding out I was pregnant then to have that snatched away from me break my heart in to a million pieces. I had to have one of my tubes removed as it erupted and was told not to try again until 3 months has past. I didn’t think I would want to try for another baby but I did but I am now struggling to fall pregnant. I went to my doctor who referred me back to the hospital and I am now waiting for a date for a laparoscopy to see if my remaining tube is blocked. 10 months down the line I still haven’t conceive, every time my period comes I become so depressed I feel like a failure which has now started to put a strain on my relationship. I am ok most of the time but then other times I can’t help myself and become so moody and cry most of the day. I really don’t know what to do. My partner says I should think positive but it is so hard when you lose something you want so badly.
So sorry to hear your story. I am in the middle of an ectopic at the moment so I understand your pain.
I wish you luck xxx