Dear Baby -
I’ve been thinking about you all week, or more accurately, the better of the past 8 months or so. I miss you terribly and feel a very large gaping hole in my heart knowing that today, or some day really close to it, should have been the day I got to hold you for the first time. But even though I can’t hold you in my arms today or any other day ever, I hope you know that I am always holding you in my heart.
I’ve just been announcing the upcoming arrival of your little brother or sister this week, and in all of the happiness there is always a note of longing for you too. In fact, I didn’t tell very many people about you until this week. I didn’t think I would ever tell many people, but I just couldn’t manage the thought of celebrating as though you never were, because you were and always will be mine.
To most people, today is a day just like any other. But to me I feel like it is “our” day - you, and me and Daddy. I feel so much love for you right now that I think I feel a presence here in my arms today and I am squeezing you so tight. I’ll never let you go. I’ll always remember you as my first baby and I know you’ll always be here with me in my heart.
I love you.
Love,
Mommy