Hi Pammy- thanks so much for sharing and im so sorry for what you’ve gone through! one ectopic is bad enough, but two is truly awful.
I am still “Pregnant” but in limbo at the moment. This week I had a 6 week scan at the IVF clinic (although by my calculations it was 6 +3 but they insisted 6 weeks…) and thankfully the pregnancy is in my womb, they could see the gestational sac and the “baby” but they couldn’t see the heartbeat.
They were very reassuring and said this early scan was simply to check the location given what happened last time and that we had achieved a good outcome because my womb looks great and everything that should be there is present - I just have to go back in a week to check for the heartbeat. They tried to reassure me 6 weeks was early for a heartbeat and told me not to lose hope but honestly my brain sort of fogged over. I didnt take in alot of what they were saying to me and now with hind site I wish I had asked certain questions.
She measured my gestational sac but didn’t tell me how big it was, and she pointed to the white blob inside and said “this is probably baby” but never mentioned the yolk sack or how long the baby was. Im just annoyed with myself for not asking.
They didn’t seem too worried (just going by their body language) but its so hard not to freak out. I was really really low the day of the scan and yesterday - cried on and off all day. Its so so hard to not expect the worst. I dont have many pregnancy symptoms so thats making it harder for me to believe. I only really have sensitive boobs on and off, mild cramping on and off and a bit of fatigue.
Next scan is on the 15th of April… so scared. Its also getting close to what would have been my due date from the ectopic pregnancy - April 21st, so the stakes are high right now. All of this wrapped up in this global health crisis! its just alot to take! I will report back after my next scan.
Dont get me wrong, I am super grateful that its not ectopic again, its just hard to hope and trust I can go the distance after so much failure x