Hi there
I experienced a miscarriage and ectopic pregnancy about 18 months ago - it was all pretty traumatic, especially as the miscarriage happened while I was on a business trip abroad and the ectopic pregnancy ruptured resulting in emergency surgery.
There was one occasion around a year ago when I had a series of very faint 2nd lines on pregnancy tests, but this turned out to be a chemical pregnancy.
I have found out in the last few days that I am pregnant and I am absolutely terrified that I am going to experience another loss. My pregnancy tests are definitely positive, but the test line is fainter and I am obsessively testing in the hope it is going to go darker, not lighter/disappear! This morning I did a digital test which said I was 2-3 weeks (which tallies with my current stage as it is from ovulation not last period), but I still can’t help worrying that the test line doesn’t look dark enough even though I always do it first thing when I wake up when the concentration will be highest
I know I have just turned into a bit of a nutter, and I need to step away from all this - what will be will be and I can’t change it - but it’s really hard…
I am also worried about speaking to my GP, because last time they set up as ‘pregnant’ and the hospital/GP etc. systems don’t talk to each other so you have to phone up and cancel things/receive calls and have to explain and I don’t think I can face it. I know I will need an early scan around 6 weeks (I am 5 weeks next Weds) but I don’t want to phone until 5 weeks in case it goes away and I have to phone back and say it was a false alarm
Sorry for the monologue. If anyone else is in the same boat please let me know and we can support each other! Thanks