My 1st baby, cor you were taken from me so suddenly on Wed 8th Oct, just 6weeks and 6 days into our lives. You had made mummy and daddy so so happy we had been trying so hard for our 1st baby.
I had to get your nannar to check the blue lines as i couldn’t believe that our 1st baby was snuggled up inside. Our lives just became so so happy. daddy was so excited he just wanted to make things so right for you.
We had all been to a charity ball on the night of Sat 4th Oct. I felt so proud to be walking around knowing that i had you inside. i knew that you weren’t snuggled in the correct place as soon as i experienced pain on my right side and started to bleed on the Sunday 5th Oct. but we hoped that you would be strong and stay with us.
Our lives suddenly started to change from being so happy to being happy and so worried that you our 1st baby was going to leave us.
Following lots of trips to the hospital, We had our 1st scan to see our baby on Wed 8th Oct the nurse said ‘i think i will have to do the scan internally as your bladder isn’t full’ i know then as i could see on the screen that you wasn’t in mummy’s uterus. well there you were snuggled in my right tube yet so close to my uterus. I’m so so sorry that this is the only time we met. Sadly they removed you from mummy and gave mummy & daddy a beautiful, beautiful angel up above that one day we will meet again and play with.
You will always be remembered as you were our 1st special little baby. when May 29th 2009 arrives the day you were meant to meet mummy & daddy we will be here thinking of you and loving you us as much as we do now.
I went through the same situation as you on the 26th July this year. I am only 22 and i was at the time 6 weeks 5 days - i have also put my post on here titled ‘i lost my baby 6 days ago’…
I am so sorry for your lost. When reading through your post it reminded me so much of myself. I will always see that baby as my 1st aswell. As it was the 1st time i was them double lines and that digital word PREGNANT come up. You cannot describe the feelings of joy and happiness as you walk proudly round knowing you have this little baby inside you. My heart shattered when the doctor told me they couldnt find anything in the uterus. I knew something wasnt right.
I hope you are feeling a bit better physically aswell, as i felt awful afterwards. Both my good and bad side were hurting and my scars . Like i say you will go through different emotions , and i think the only thing that could keep you focused right now is having another one and staying close to your partner. Alot of people dont understand and are so insensitive of words . If you want to talk at any point let us know …
Well our baby would have been due anytime now…Nine months have passed us by so so fast but not a day has gone by when we haven’t had our precious memory in our minds. We have moved on with our life and become stronger as a couple and i know one day we will have our 2nd chance hopefully this will be very soon as we are just about to have our 3rd attempt at IVF. Memories of our 1st baby will always be deep within us and never forgotten. Unfortunately things happen for a reason and i feel my life has been planned to work how it has been so far. pray to God that 2009 is a better year than last. Can we really have another year of upset?
Thinking of what we would be doing right now if our baby wasn’t taken so suddenly from us. night night little one mummy and daddy love you lots xxxxxxx