Hi Everyone,
I have been reading some of your stories and feel it’s time to share mine.
Firstly I want to say sorry to all of you who have found yourself here.
My Name is Jo i am very lucky to be mum to my 2 children from my previous relationship (ex husband) but unfortunatley find myself here now 
… Here is my story
My partner and I had been trying for a baby for round 4yrs with no luck then out of the blue last july (2019) i started feeling sick and exhausted but put it down to my demanding job working at the time 60-70hrs a week 7 days a week, but as the eased a bit i was still feeling ill i didnt do a test as hadn’t long had a period. Anyway i still decided to take one and low and beholed it came up positive so i took 4 more to be sure and then told my partner as this would be his 1st, we were over the moon i rang gp to get appointment and was just over the moon the last test i took said 5+ so thought i was around 5-6 weeks.
A few weeks later we went to my midwife (friday) appointment and told her i had been spotting for a couples days but no pain to which she didnt seem concerned andsaid if i continued to call gp, on monday Anyway it did stop and we carried on normal over the weekend went to work Monday but by lunchtime i started feeling unwell just sick and tired really so went and worked from home, later that evening i had slight pains in Abdomen so went to bed and said id call midwife if no better the next day.
This is what i did and it was from here the living nightmare begun… the midwife said she cant help and to call my GP i managed to get an appointment pretty quick, after a few tests she said she wanted me to go for a scan to rule of Eptoptic so 3hrs later we were sat waiting for my scan i was so nervous but just prayed all was ok for my partners ske if anything seeing and hearing your baby for the firdt time is such a cherised moment, so we got called in… And as soon as the scan begun i saw our baby and straight away thought im further than 6-7 weeks it was a formed baby, I was infacy 12+1 weeks baby was moving around we saw and heard its heartbeat and got told all was ok got congratulated and sent on our way.
We were buzzing my partner had gotten emotional in the scan and i was just so relieved all was well, BUT then not 3hrs hours at home i found myself over come with pain doubled over couldnt catch m breath i managed to get it bed in a semi comfortable postion and called to my partner call 999 ( i knew something wasnt right) he explained what was happening and go told ’ WE ARE BUSY YOU WILL GET A CALL BACK WITHIN 3HR) SHOCKING !!! Anyway half hr later i had to get my partner call them back to which the call handler dispatched an ambulance immediatley and was discusted to the prevoius had but us on the waiting list. Paramedics arrived by thistime i was im so much pain and discomfort and spaced out i had no idea what was going on really, the paramedics got me to walk to the ambulance one each side of me supporting i passed out a few times on the way but the time we got to hospital i was rushed into Majors where i ws surrounded by sounds,people all going on but NO ONE knew what was going on with me. The Majos head Doctor said i was sepsis and to prep me for a ward, it was only when the ward doctor came a refused to take me things kicked off more long story short.
i arrived in majors and 6.40pm it took 5 different surgeons until 10.30pm who finally scanned me to find out what was wrong… the rest of this has never been heard of before and may be upsetting for some to read.
i was 3 months pregnant… baby was alive, healthy and fully formed 8hrs earlier.
10.30pm scan showed baby had passed due to ruptured eptopic i was internally bleeding (to death).
i was rushed in theatreat 11pm - 3am i came round in recovery with no idea where i was what happened what time it was.
9am my partner was allowed in recovery to see me and my gynocologist came in to explain it all.
She has been a gynocogist for 30yrs and had never seen this before, she had to apologise for crying when expaining ( i later found out there were 16 people in theatre that night fighting for me to whic 3 had to have a theopy session after).
Baby had ruptured me with its litle foot. She had to scoop baby out with her hands ( baby had a little ceremony) and then was scooping my blood with her hands as i was loosing so much.
I had keyhole and open surgery… i lost in total 6 pints of blood - 2 pint tranfusion on table and 1 pint 2 days later in hospital.
the after care and my now emotional state is awhole other post.
its been 4mths now and im getting there slowly Very slowly somedays.
thank you for taking the time to read x