Well where to start…
Im 33, hubbys 36 and weve been together over 9 years, married for 7, we have a little boy 22months and thought it was time to try for baby no.2.
I had arranged and had the swine flu jab (27th dec)and started taken anti natal pills. I didnt wait to have the jab once i was pregnant as i was worried about side effects if taken during pregnancy. so we were set to start trying…
Then we had bad news (29th dec) and was told our little boy was poorly and he had been refered to great ormond street hospital …mega stressful times…we didnt know what to do,wait or try…wait or try???
We were hesitant in the following weeks and only had unprotected sex once during the month on Jan (12 Jan) Low n Behold that was enough to get me pregnant…we were thrilled and thought well it was just meant to be !!! We started our new year again wiv a speacal dinner and toasted to the new year!!
We took my son to the hospital on 17th Feb and where told he was fine, that he was mis diagnosed!! double delight !! heathly little boy and pregnant with his sibling. We couldnt have been happier!! so… it really was meant to be we figured!!
I went along to a routine gp appointment that for pre-booked so that i could update her on my son and while i was there i also told her i was pregnant and that the last couple of week it had feel a little bit achey…i could have so easy for to tell her this as it wasnt very noticable really. I had also already saw another doc a few weeks earlier as i had some bleeding at 5 weeks which lasted 4 days and was like a light period. the doctor i saw about the bleeding was in the least concerned and told me 1/4 of all pregnant women have some bleeding and as long as there is no pain or clots its nothing to worry about and so i had took him at his word and not worried at all…(silly me) So when my dr (lovely lady) advised i go for an early scan i was actually really happy about it and excited becoz i thought woopyyy i get the see me little one early, get to see and hear the heartbeat, see how big he/she is etc etc…id also been watching scans on you tube and at 8 weeks they are starting to move etc…this was on the thursday and i was called friday morning, so i took my son, called my sis (u can imagine the phone call, how exciting)and headed over for my scan.
i was kept waiting for quite a while my appointment was 11.20am but i wasnt seen till about 12noon, by this time im thinking my sone needs lunch soon… anyway they scan me and cant see anything…then i get the internal scan and they think its ectopic.We were kept waiting in a side room while a discussions went on in the next room, I didnt really know what would happen so i fed my son and prayed they would hurry up, my son was overdue his nap now…and getting grumpy. Then it all happens really quick… they tell me i need my bloods taking to check my levels, they come back high so im told i will need to be admited straight away and have an operation to remove my baby…
I ring my hubby to come get our son have a little cry wiv my sister and am sent to the ward.
They did keyhole surery and removed my much wanted baby and also my left tube. i was 8 weeks and that was 12 days ago.
I had no pain at all…just a little ache, and the bleeding i was told not to worry about !!
Im grateful for the surgery becoz it saved my life and means my son still has his mum…but im also angry with them for taking my baby away… 
I dont know how to heal/move on but ive done a memerory type box, with my mat notes, congrats cards etc etc in it…
If i am blessed to have another baby ill always think there should have been three… and that im mum to three! i loved my baby soo much…
Lisa xx