hello, im new here and have never done anything like this before. My name is Noele and i am blessed to have a son, Ethan, who will be three in april. in Nov 06 i was feeling rather poorly and tired, but after months of irregular periods i didnt even consider i could be pregnant. on the 11.11.06 i was in absolute agony and physically sick for about 2 hours and the following day i had a pain in the right side of my tummy. after xmas shopping with my mother the following day,she suggested doing a pregnancy test as she thought i may be having one (there has been 9(!) in my family). i did the test and my partner and i were estatic when the result was a really strong positive, but within minutes i started to bleedi was exactly 4wks gone. leaving my little boy with my mother we went to the local walk in treatment centre who refered us to the epau in the main hospital next door. after examination they said it was highly likely i was suffering an ectopic. after hcg tests etc i was admitted. the next day i left hospital under the agreement i wasnt left alone for a minute. the following day i had the repeat blood test and was called on the wednesday with the results. i was having an ectopic and they scheduled me for an operation on the friday. that night i had severe shoulder tip pain and was readdmited to hospital, nil by mouth and i was told my op would be the next day. that next morning the hospital were absolutly useless and the doctor left me for 3hours before informing me that i could have a drink as my op had been set back till the next day again, and i only got that info cause i kicked up a fuss! i ended up discharging myself against their advice blah blah blah and returned home. on friday 17th nov i had a laposectomy and salpingectomy to remove my right tube. i hadnt been bleeding internally but the surgeon had tried to save my tube by “scooping to baby out” and this had cause it to rupture. obviously i was a mess and within 3 hours of coming round i was at home. id had enough of hospitals to last me a lifetime!!!
by some miracle, bearing in mind my periods had previously been irregular(10/13 weeks appart) i ovulated- recognised by severe pain- 3 weeks later.
2 days before xmas i found out i was 4 weeks pregnant again! we were absolutely elated! but on the 28th dec i started bleeding, back to the hospital again. the doctor said it was a threatened miscarriage but thought the pregnancy would end soon. he was right, the day before new years eve i had a complete miscarriage. i lost two babies in 7 weeks and i am absolutely heartbroken.
most days i can just get through, i try to focus on my little boy but just because i have one child, it doesnt stop the desperate need i feel for another. my partner has been a great supprt and is as devestated as i am, but i just dont know what to do with myself. after the ectopic i was just trying to focus on the “next time” but then that was taken from me aswell. i am so scared ill never have another child.