Hello
Some of you may remember me from three years ago.
I come and catch up from time to time, mainly following Bluetopaz and checking up on old names I remember who supported me so much.
Well, I’m back on the IVF road. We’re currently doing our first (and hopefully only) FET. We have 4 frosties. I know the chances of thawing/implanting etc, but as previously, I’m hopeful yet trying not to get carried away thinking all will be straightforward.
So, I’ve had my first baseline, and going for my second on Friday this week so see how lining is thickening and get some indication of when the big thaw will be.
Just wanted to do a little post, in case anyone remembers me and in case I may be back to ask lots and lots of questions.
Take care all and good luck.
Topcat x
Any friend of BT is a friend of mine :0)
Best of luck topcat - I will be interested to hear about your FET as we have 2 frosties and I don’t really know what’s involved on a frozen cycle so would be very helpful to hear about it as you go. Do you always have to downreg for a FET or an you do unmedicated cycles? If so, how do they decide, do you know? Wishing you loads and loads of luck xxx
Wishing you lots of luck. I’ll be keeping everything crossed for you. Keep us posted on how it all goes. xx
Hi TC
I’m pretty sure you were around when we had our successful IVF more than 3 years ago. I will be keeping an eye on you! We only have one frostie from our IVF and are really uncertain whether to try. I know that probably sounds quite strange but I’m in a good place with my LO and really unsure about getting back on the crazy horse!
Wishing you lots of luck.
Scoops
x
Hi Scoops
This post is coming up to being nearly a year old now. Thanks for posting to me, I think I remember you too.
I’ve posted again more recently, you’ll be able to see what’s been happening. 4 fails on the trot. It’s been nothing short of an emotional nightmare which just raises more questions and no answers! But like my youth ( :lol: ) I’m clinging on to the hope (that everyone still tells me there is - I’m so sick of hearing it along with the old classic ‘it will happen …’ :roll: :twisted:). I know I’m not ready for anyone to tell me it’s over, there’ll never be a chance of me conceiving, experiencing pregnancy again, giving birth, having a sibling for my DD. But I do know that I can’t go on with this for an infinite number of years, so I go through thoughts of hope and acceptance on varying days.
Topcat x
Hi Topcat
I can’t believe nearly a year has gone by since we were last in contact. I don’t really come on here much anymore (think I’ve more than outstayed my welcome on here!) but I’ve been on here lately to see how the lovely ladies (from our days) on the “pregnancy after” post are doing. It was lovely but also not lovely to because of your circumstances to hear from you.
Firstly, I’m so so sorry to hear that you’ve been unsuccessful with IVF. You were one of the ones I’d been routing for before I stopped coming onto this site. I so understand how you’re feeling. I think I’m going to have to come to terms very soon with never going through a full pregnancy and not ever experiencing more than a 3 month bump. I’m now 46 and it just isn’t going to happen but I’m still in denial. I get the “it will still happen” because I look miles younger than I am but I think those who say that – and that includes my doctor - are as deluded as I am - or I get the “you need to find another interest”. Sorry but wanting a baby isn’t an interest; it’s a lifelong deep-seated thing that can’t be replaced with flower arranging. I’m at the stage where I have to try to come to terms with never having a baby but I don’t know how you do that and even at 46 I don’t think I’m ready to do that. One of the hosts suggested that I join the life without children board but I can’t bring myself to do that. So, I can’t give you any advice on that, I’m afraid. I go through times of still being hopeful because I have no signs of going through the menopause but, in darker times, I just know it’s not going to happen for me and that’s just so damned unfair as all I’ve even wanted since my teens is to be a mum. So, I completely get how you feel and you already being a mum doesn’t change that. It’s just not fair.
On the positive side with me – I don’t know if you know – my lawsuit is over and done with. It got settled at the end of last year, very much in my favour and I’m really proud of what I’ve done. It’s lovely not to have that hanging over my head, although I’m about to do some media publicity. Probably making a rod for my own back as it will mean I can’t move on completely but if I can stop this happening to one more person, it will be worth it.
So lovely to hear from you even though it wasn’t the news I wanted to hear from you. So sorry I can’t give you the advice you need but lots and lots of love.
BT xxx
Sorry TC, I didn’t realise that was an old post. Also sorry to hear about the tough time you’ve had
I’m in complete flux with whether to launch back in to treatment. It’s brilliabt to be able to read everyone’s experiences here. I have missed you guys! Scoops xxx
Hello Bluetopaz
Thanks so much for your message. Everyone’s messages mean so much to me. I feel I’m consumed by this, I can’t think of anything other than this and my mum’s death.
You should be proud of yourself, rightly so. I’m waiting to see your story come out for everyone to know. Are you able to tell me where you’ll be doing press? Will it be in print? tv? Or both? I’ve been hooked on the Daily Mail website for the last year or so waiting to see your story on there, it’s become an addiction that I don’t much like as there are always hideous stories of child neglect or abuse. Where will I be able to see it?
Take care.
Topcat xxx