Our IVF journey. Heartbroken

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Hello!

Just wanted to say Hi. Its early hours of the morning. I am just into 3 days post op. Feeling very sore, I hate my scars and my swollen belly. I can’t really sleep, I have trouble eating. I keep randomly crying. This is so hard.

6 years ago we decided we could start trying for a baby. It took a while for us to come to terms with the fact we may need some help. After seeing the doctor this was indeed the case. So after a few false starts we finally got onto an IVF cycle. It was kind of exciting. I had a box full of drugs, needles and instructions on injecting myself. It all went really well. I went into surgery for the first time ever to have 12 eggs collected. Only 2 made it back. We were lucky really we were closely monitered. My HGC numbers came back as positive. But they didn’t start or rise how they should. After asking about my symptoms we were called in for a scan to see what was going on. I was expecting to be home within the hour. Instead I was whisked up to a ward and had surgery within a few hours. It all felt like a whirlwind. I was pretty sick from the anesthetic. After a night in the hosiptal I was released. It all feels surreal and very real all at the same time.

Sorry for the ramble. I hope no one minds.

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Hi Postiezoe,

I am so sorry to hear of your loss, especially after such a long time TTC. We have been TTC #2 for 4yrs and in that time we have had 3 eps, and I have lost both of my tubes meaning that IVF is the only option for us now, so I really understand about how hard and time consuming IVF is. We have now had two unsuccessful cycles, but have three embryos that we can transfer when we are ready.

I really understand what you mean about it all happening so suddenly, and after it’s over you are left with the feeling of “what just happened?!” Please don’t ever apologise for posting on here, that’s what it’s here for. Come here and rant and ramble, get it all off your chest because going through IVF and losing a much wanted baby can be very isolated journeys on their own, let alone going through both of them together. Please take care of yourself and do whatever you can to find some peace and happiness in every day, although that may seem impossible at times. Sometimes you just need to get through it day by day, even hour by hour at times.

Take care, and I am always here to talk to if you need xxx