Hello. I am 40 and have two living children. My DH and I decided not to have more children, although that was more his decision than mine, but I knew that trying to convince him was just not going to work, so accepted my fate and saw the good in it. My mum died last year, and one night in September after a lot of crying and grieving, my DH and I ML when I was fertile. The next day I felt myself ovulate but did not go to the chemist until Monday (two days after). My DH again said how much he did not want more babies.
I saw the pharmacist and got the tablets (morning after pill) and stood for ages in the road thinking that I could just throw the pills away and DH would never know. But I could not do that to him.
Anyway, I thought no more about it. I got AF, but it was pretty light and only for one day. Then two weeks later I got more bleeding, so went to the Dr. he did a pg test and lo and behold it was positive. Shock. But DH and I thought “okay, not in the plan, but its a baby and we will love it”. I had bloods done and it was confirmed that I was 6 weeks. We went for a scan to investigate the bleeding and the dufus technician was a learner and I just knew that he wasn’t having a good look. I said to him “are you sure you’ve had a good look everywhere” as they could not find any evidence of a pg.
Anyway, more bloods and they sent me home. I learnt that the HCG was going down, although quite slowly, but thought I would just wait it out.
Now, this might sound dumb, but to me it seemed like an easy miscarriage, and for this reason I thought all was not right, although I did not think about an ep. The bleeding was light, there was no crampy pain and there were no clots. I have got to say that I had no real pain.
Because of my mum’s death and the sadness we now felt over the impending loss of a baby, I went to my Dr and begged for it to be over. He sent me to the hospital, and the registrar thought it would be best to mc naturally. By this stage I was a bit hysterical, so they got me a bed on a ward so I could be looked after, even though there was no medical need.
They did another U/S just in case. Thank goodness. Off to surgery to have the ep removed. The tube had ruptured and there was an awful lot of blood in my abdomen. It took a long time to recover.
We have now decided to ttc, and my DH would now love to have a baby. Regrets: I wish I had spoken up more about my desire for another baby. I wish I had not taken that pill.
Anyway, love to you all, and I wish you peace.
Kaye