Hi all,
Last week I had a positive pregnancy test but something felt off. I only took the test not because I felt pregnant but because something in my gut told me to. Two weeks prior I had what was a normal period that happened when it was suppose too and that is what concerned me the most. I went to the hospital and had bloods taken which confirmed pregnancy and within 48 hours had to go back for more bloods and a scan. Nothing showed on the scan and bloods had only rose from 1127 to 1763. I had a repeat blood test Sunday and again levels only rose to 2400 something. Come yesterday I was sat in a doctors office being handed leaflets and being told the options I had moving forward. I asked for a scan so I can have some closure and be 100% sure this is what is happening (I think i was still in denial) and the doctor allowed for that to go ahead. Scan showed nothing but a small blood clot in my uterus && that’s when it finally hit me.
I decided to go the medical route and I had the injection at 11am this morning. I came home and have laid in bed since just on/off crying. I have so many questions, so many what ifs and I just feel empty and numb I can’t see a future past this hurt and heartbreak && At this moment in time all I can hope for is the medicine to work & that no further management is needed.
Guess I just came to offload to you guys. I have a 12 year old son who is keeping me going but Iv always dreamed of having another and now I feel like those dreams will never come true 
Dear Lauralouise,
I am so sorry to hear of your ectopic pregnancy loss. When we experience ectopic pregnancy we are suddenly faced with a life threatening emergency and its treatment, reduction in fertility, concerns about the future and the loss of our babies. Experiencing any one of these is an ordeal, putting them together is immense and your feelings are completely normal.
When we experience ectopic pregnancy it is also very common to question why this has happened to us and sadly most of us never find that answer. There is nothing you could have done to prevent this from happening, from the bottom of my heart, you are not to blame.
For some it can be a very traumatic experience and it can take up to 3 months to begin to process trauma such as this. So please be kind to yourself and allow time to grieve and heal.both physically and emotionally. These boards are safe spaces to share thoughts, feelings, fears, get support or information or even just to vent and we will be here for as long as you need.
Best wishes and gentle hugs,
Karen x
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