Need help
So scared to be pregnant again and sad to not be, so torn!
I had a ectopic at 7weeks August 14 treated with injection then felt like forever to try again but happy I was in March 15 felt different from before so got hopes up but then miscarriage I was in bits! Started trying straight away I’m just hoping I am now but not sure when I obvulated last period was 16th April and had a spot of blood which I believe is implantion bleed yesterday but is this too early! Feel my boobs are tingling but is it all in my head?
Just feel so emotional friends have had babies or due they same time I would of been!
I feel like if I am I’m not gunna tell anyone till pass 7weeks just to not jinx it am I crazy?
It’s crazy how you get so excited when see the pregnant sign on the test but just to get it all blown up in your face! I just feel like it’s never gunna happen! Please help I feel like I’m goin crazy
Dear Marie:
No, you are not crazy. If you are, then, most of us are also. Sometimes I feel that after all of the losses and pain, TTCfeels like jumping into an outdoors swimming pool in winter. I lost two pregnancies due to ectopics. I found support here, in this forum, and also taking to a friend who has gone through the same. She said “I wanted a baby and if I was afraid to try, I would had never gotten one”. I managed to have a healthy third pregnancy. My toddler is my sun. I’m TTC, and the same fears and expectations arise once again. I get anxious that I need to pee more often, I touch my breast to check if they feel tender and so far, I haven’t been lucky. I try not to get affected by all of my friends who keep saying “I’m pregnant”. Some haven’t even finished the third trimester. If I manage, trust me, I won’t even tell my mum!
Marie, if you write in the TTC thread, you will find more women like you and find plenty of support.
Best of lucks
Thank you so much for your reply! Really means so much as haven’t got anyone to talk to apart from partner and don’t want to worry him with all my aches and pains! I’m currently 4weeks pregnant took test last week and was positive so trying to stay positive as didn’t have that with ectopic plus strong symptoms! But got constant worry and niggly pain on same side I had ectopic but had this from very early! Just praying it’s not ectopic as didn’t have pain so early on before I just had bad pain at 7 weeks also bleeding!
Did you feel any on and off pain the same side when pregnant after ectopic?
Thank you again
Congratulations! I’m so happy for you! Have you asked for your Early Pregnancy scan? That will give you the peace you need. I had cramps when I had the “good” pregnancy. I was so nervous I kept going to the toilet once per hour to check for blood stains. I was so nervous! I was horrified of a miscarriage, then of a still birth and then of birth. I think fear is somehow normal after what we’ve gone through. Don’t be concerned about sharing your feelings with your husband. You anticipate his reaction. It might be that he is as scared as you are or it might be that you will hear the words that you need.
Best of luck!