anniversary of due date while 20 weeks pregnant

Pregnant After Ectopic Pregnancy
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Hi ladies,

I was wondering if anyone has been feeling like I am now? I had zn ectopic in Oct 2015 and had a tube removed after it ruptured. I’m currently 20 weeks pregnant which is awesome but it was such an anxious first 12 weeks and even now I’m expecting something to go wrong. Its such a difference from my first pregnancy with my son. What I’m asking though is how did others feel at this point?

I told my mum I feel so sad as I should be getting ready to give birth. I feel guilty that I’m lucky enough to be 20 weeks pregnant but I’m still sad of the loss of a baby. Right after the ectopic I felt I immediately wanted to be pregnant again. Only now do I fully understand that it will never replace the baby I’ve lost.

I feel ungrateful for the miracle I have inside me when my family are saying 'think about the baby who is coming in October ’ but I can’t explain fully to them that nothing makes it better or takes away the pain even though I’m so happy about my baby growing inside me. Has anyone else felt like this? Sylvia x

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Hi

I totally understand. I was about 10 weeks when what would have been the due date passed. I was a hormonal mess. My ectopic was 3 years ago and I have a gorgeous toddler. I feel guilty when I get upset thinking about the ectopic because had that baby been in the right spot, I would not have gone on to have her.

There is sometimes no way to rationalise emotions; you just have to take each day as it comes and try to look forward to a happy future.

xx