15th cycle TTC since an ectopic pregnancy (managed via MTX)
9 DPO and BFN this was my first cycle after a HYCOSY I even thought I had implantation bleeding yesterday and some yellow CM the day before for the first time so thought might be promising. Both tubes open, utuerus looked good and even the amount of follicles I had looked amazing. My husband had done a semen analysis twice all normal and I have had AMH and other blood work… I ovulate regularly and have even lost a stone and a half in weight…What is wrong with me??? Why am I not pregnant. I can’t take it anymore it’s heartbreaking. The only thing I can possibly think of is could be that I have a retroverted uterus?? I was told the opening of my womb is really tight but again doctor said that shouldn’t be a problem. Am I just to accept I will never be a mum… and it’s just not on the cards… I’m 35 and adore kids. It’s just not fair.
Hi, I totally understand where your coming from. We’ve not used contraception for 18 years. I was diagnosed with pcos and husband had very low sperm results 16 years ago. Overtime I thought I’d come to terms with not having a family, at first it was really hard, I went to a very dark place and thought what’s the point to my life, “it’s what us women are meant to do.” We got on with our lives, bought a dog and have been living it to the full. Unfortunately nearly 5 weeks ago I was admitted to a&e with severe stomach cramps and was very surprisingly told I was pregnant but they suspected it was ectopic. After nearly 2 weeks it was found on my right ovary. I’m currently been treated with methotrexate which thankfully is working and my levels are dropping. I’m now 41 and husband is 48, my husband has decided we’re now too old to be having a baby as there’s higher risks of problems and doesn’t want to leave them in their own if something happens to us because it’s happened later on in life. Many years ago which helped me come to terms with not having a family, I found a lady who has many videos on youtube all about life without children she’s called Jody Day, honestly check out her videos it’ll surprise you. Now this has happened I’ll be watching the videos all over again to help me come to terms that it’s not meant to be for me. I hope this helps you feel less alone and I wish you all the best for the future 