This is my first cycle of TTC since my EP in June, 8 days till AF is due. Don’t really know how I am feeling and the best way to describe it is like an obsessed woman. Although I did not track ovulation days, I count down in my head everyday 10days till I’m due on or can take a pregnancy test, 9days, 8days. I feel like I am setting myself up to be utterly devastated if AF arrives. I know I shouldn’t think this way but I don’t know how not too.
I was never like this before when TTC. Has anyone else felt like this?
Wishing you all, all the luck in the world this month
This is also my first month TTC after an ectopic in June. Did you have to have your tube removed? I was about 8 weeks and the baby had a heartbeat so they had to remove my right tube.
I know exactly how you feel, I am concerned about what is going to happen and how I am going to feel when my AF is due. A small part of my will be relieved that I don’t have to worry about an EP but the vast majority of me will be devastated. Prior to the EP I had a miscarriage at 9 weeks back in April. My husband and I had no problems conceiving but I have had such a horrid experience trying to have a baby. My consultant told me to start trying again this month so we will see. She couldn’t see any reason to suggest we would struggle but that doesn’t really stop me from worrying.
I will cross my fingers for you and I hope all goes well. We all deserve a bit of luck
I was lucky enough to not have my tube removed I was treated with methotrexate. It was my first pregnancy, I was 6weeks. I was lucky enough to conceive within 3months of having my coil out after being told I may never have children.
I am only 24 but have bad endometriosis, which has spread onto my bladder causing me too have problems with both my bladder and kidneys. I have had far to many treatments to count and 4 operations within the last 3 years to try and help and stop the growth but none have worked. I was told the damage done was bad and with it still growing my only hope of living pain free would be a hystorectomy so if I wanted to at least try for children I should sooner rather than later.
I always wanted children, in fact the only thing I’ve ever been sure on so once settled with my partner we decided to try and see if I could fall, when I fall after 3months I was amazed but I knew something was wrong (I bled for 35days straight which wasn’t unusual for me before getting morning sickness which promoted me to take a test) They are unsure if my endometriosis was to blame for my ep.
I am so excited to try again but I just can’t get this obsessive thoughts out of my head and I know I will be so gutted every month if it’s not our month.
I had an ectopic pregnancy and fallopian tube removed in July this year. It was my first pregnancy and I had been trying, on and off, for quite a long time. In fact, I had become obsessed during this time about dates and ovulation and that was one of the things that prompted me to stop trying a couple of times - it was making me feel so anxious! When we started trying again was when I did get pregnant with the ectopic…
I will start trying again next month probably - at least that is when I can try. So I can’t totally empathise yet with what you are referring to. But to calm myself down about dates and conceiving, I just tried to remember that I was doing my best to get pregnant and I just had to accept that fate would take a hand. Getting pregnant really is one of those things you cannot completely control so you have to accept that, even though it can be extremely difficult! I’m trying to focus on the fact that when we had a lot of sex and I relaxed a bit about it all, I did fall pregnant. That already puts me in a different category from people who can’t get pregnant in the first place… even if it did end in an ectopic and surgery that was incredibly harrowing
It’s often said that its easier to get pregnant when you aren’t trying to… I just tried to focus on that whilst keeping half an eye on the calendar. It’s tricky but you can do it! Good luck!
I’ve not been on here for a while as I’ve had a lot of other things going on.
As some of you know I was on chlomid. But had stopped taking it after the 1st cycle.
I had been having some strange pains and things so went to the GP last week to have some swabs done to make sure all was ok.
Turns out I’ve got an infection. But I’ve no idea what infection as the receptionist never told me all she said was its not a sexually transmitted one. but they have given me antibiotics . But now I’ve got this mad thing going in in my head. I can’t help but think it could destroy the little remaining chance I have left as due to infection after my son that’s what destroyed my tube causing my EP. So I just can’t stop thinking about it. So I’m going to call them tomorrow and find out what it is. Just more stress that I don’t need! Dosent anything ever just go to plan?!
Also found out my best friend is expecting and they weren’t even trying so that’s just annoyed me so much. I didn’t think 2 years post EP I’d still be so angry over friends and family having babies… its a horrible feeling to have toward people i care about
So sorry to hear what’s been going on. Makes me feel bad for feeling how I do when I am in my first month of TTC.
I agree, you should ring the dr to clarify what infection it is they think you have and to put your mind at rest.
I still get very bitter of people who are pregnant and agree it is a horrible feeling to have, espically with like you said, people you are close too but I don’t think there is anything wrong with you feeling like that after everything you have been through. I’m sure anyone in your position would feel the same. I know I would!
I hope things start too get more positive for you.
Shibhon - Hope you find out some answers from the drs, it’s no good them being vague, it only increased anxiety. Sorry to hear the clomid caused bad side effects for you.
I’m feeling quite sad that I’m joining in on another month of TTC discussions. Trying desperately to stay positive.
Wow, I haven’t really been on this forum since February when I was at home recovering from the surgery for my EP. It was my first pregnancy, and would you Adam and Eve it, our first go at trying without contraception. We’ve been actively trying since May now and no luck. September’s AF was SO unwelcome- particularly as it was 2 days late and I am never late. (In fact, since the EP my cycle had been getting earlier and earlier.) And then of course I still find myself wondering if it’s an actual period or a chemical pregnancy/early miscarriage.
I’m trying so hard not to be obsessed about it but I’m not doing very well… The 2 week waiting game is horrible and I find myself thinking every twinge and twist that’s going on inside must mean I’m preggers… and then being so disappointed when I’m not.
Anyone doing anything interesting to distract themselves??
I think I may have a similar problem to you… I have been having some weird pains and this was also way before the ectopic incident. I am going to the gyno tomorrow but I think I have bacterial vaginosis from what I can decipher from the internet. They don’t entirely know why people get it but it makes sense from what your Dr said, I think? I’ve been getting a weird, unpleasant smell after sex (we started TTC again) but also the weird twinges and flashes of pain… There’s a good page about it on the NHS website. I’ll see what my gyno says…
How are you feeling now? Did they say anything about waiting to TTC?
I’m back from the gyno and she did a swab and I do have that infection. I have 2 pessaries to use for 2 days. She said once I’ve used them, I’m fine to start TTC again. And even if it comes back and I am pregnant I can take antibiotics and it is fine. I do know someone who was in a war-torn country who had this bacterial infection and it was left untreated and as a result she lost her twins in the 5th month… But she knew something was wrong and was ignored. I don’t want to scare anyone, but I feel glad that I went to the docs today and want to encourage others who have weird twinges…
Goldie - your situation is the same as mine. Ectopic in jan after first time trying, and have been trying since my after methotrexate with no luck. My cycles are still all over the place, tho and almost double the length they were before my ectopic. I know I’m ovulating, but either struggle to time it right each month or just end up with period anyway! I’m frustrated and sad and confused as to why it’s taking soooo long.
My doc is referring me to a fertility specialist in dec, and although I’m hoping we fall pregnant before then - I’m almost just wishing it here already as I’m fed up with my long cycles and feeling like I’m getting no where.
I’m 11 days dpo approximately, and feel nothing. Period due in by next weekend.
Hi Ladies, sorry I’ve been so absent this month- I couldn’t log on to this site for about 3 weeks, so I’m glad to be back and reading your posts.
I can relate to the all-consuming nature of TTC and have found that taking a less-rushed approach has helped us a little. That’s hard to do once we’re in our 30s but we’re trying!
Shibhon I’m glad they’ve got your health a bit more sorted, it sounds like you have a few answers now.
Hi, I’m new to these boards having only just registered. I did find this website helpful when recovering from my ectopic at the end of March this year and thought I’d join the boards to talk to people who have experienced this. My ectopic was my first pregnancy and resulted in emergency surgery at about 8 weeks. My case is a bit unusual as the pregnancy was located on my right ovary, and meant I had to have part of the ovary removed. Anyone here experienced this? I still struggle to understand how or why this happened to me. Since it was in my ovary I still have both my tubes and they said I should still be able to get pregnant. The consultant told me my tubes ‘looked good’ but from what I’ve researched I understand it’s hard to know just from looking, so I don’t understand why she said that. Been ttc properly for a couple of months and finding it so hard every time af approaches as with the ectopic it was our very first ‘go’. All I keep thinking is my tubes must be blocked up and I find myself obsessed with trying to get pregnant.
I hope that wherever you are is comforting. And relaxing. I hope you are taking care of yourself. Truly. And I hope you know how important you are to the world, and that there are people all over the world who love you. This world is full of great people. And this world is full of beauty. I hope you find that. Might need this ff to ease the feels.
End of August/beginning of September will be our first round of TTC after an ectopic in June. I am minus my left tube so it might take a while. I’m a bit terrified of trying again but we know we want kids so I’m just trying to focus on my own health and happiness at the same time.
