Hey Everyone,
So I try to stay as upbeat as possible most of the time, but I’m struggling at the minute and need some moral support.
I had an EP in July this year, my fifth pregnancy in two years of ttc, with the four previous ending in early miscarriage.
Physically I’m fine, and there’s no reason we can’t just keep on trying. My left tube was removed, but I’ve healed well and was told my right tube is healthy…
…and yet I find I’m avoiding bd-ing during my fertile time, burying my head in work, and avoiding my (many) friends with babies.
I feel as though I should be getting right back on it, but truth be told, I’m terrified, not only of the possibility of losing my one remaining good tube, but also of all the heartache again.
Has anyone found a way of summoning the strength to keep in trying?
Hi,
just to say I had my EP in July too. It was my first pregnancy. I started TTC as soon as I could but then when I didn’t become pregnant became really down and anxious. This month we are taking a break and I feel mentally and physically so much better. We might start trying again next month but I need to know I have got the sadness I feel about all of this out of the way.
Last month when AF came then I knew ‘ok I’m not pregnant’ but I had so much pain, even a week afterwards, that I started to freak out massively. Like you, I know if I lose my remaining tube I lose my change of conceiving naturally. I went to the out of hours gyno and she said everything is fine and then almost immediately I started to feel better…! I realised waiting til I feel sane enough to deal with the emotions of TTC is the right thing for me.
It is still fairly early days for both of us. I am also avoiding pregnant friends… Feels bad but we have had a rough ride!
Thank you, Next Time,
It really helps to know I’m not alone.
Maybe I will just take a break for a bit and be kind to myself.
I hope we both find ourselves healthy mums-to-be soon
Xxx