Terrifed

I’m very new to these forums so I hope I get this right!

I found out I was pregnant for the first time around 4 weeks ago. That same week I found myself in a&e having emergency surgery to remove my right tube. I barely had time to even take in that I was pregnant so of course still feeling very much in shock, hormonal and worried.

I am absolutely terrified what this holds for me in the future. I desperately want babies and I find it hard to understand how I could be at risk of this happening again given that the doctors found no issues with the removed tube. Surely this means my left tube is good?

I spend hours a day googling success stories which do give me some hope but naturally I am a worrier so I am also always thinking of the worst.

My other concern is the 6 week early scan I have been promised if I become pregnant again. As previously my tube had ruptured at 5 weeks, I am worried 6 weeks is too late for me.

Has anyone had a similar experience or worries to share? X

Hi Martha,

It’s a very worrying time and you are not alone. I’m so sorry for your loss. I was 11 weeks and 6 days when I had surgery, and like you no damage was found to the tube they removed. It seems logical to me that the remaining tube is fine.

I’m pregnant again now, I had a scan at 4 weeks, 4 days, and another today at 5 weeks and 4 days and neither scan could tell me anything. Everyone I have spoken to has said that they can’t see anything before six weeks because it’s not big enough.

If I’m honest I wish I hadn’t been sent for the scans so early, they just cause more worry. I’m now classed as having a ‘pregnancy in an unknown location’ which seems utterly ridiculous, why can’t they just say it’s too small to see?

Anyway, I don’t know if that helps. At first I was pleased to be offered scans so early, but they haven’t told me anything, so now I think it’s better to wait.

Take care of yourself, and give yourself time to recover emotionally as well as physically. My experience was sudden and traumatic, much like yours, and I didn’t really start to come to terms with it until a few months after. I had counseling which helped immensely.

Wishing you all the very best