Struggling

Hi everyone!

It’s coming up to a year since my Ectopic and I am really starting to struggle with it. Everyone says time is a healer but I am feeling this getting a lot harder as the time gets closer.

Can anyone offer any suggestions as to how I should try and deal with this? I want to be happy for Christmas because last year was such an awful time (my Ectopic ruptured Christmas Day and the lead up I was in hospital from the 6th December) and I want me and my partner not to get so down about it all?

I feel there are a lot of dark clouds over me at the moment and I don’t know how to shift them.

Any help or advice would be appreciated xxx

Hi, I didn’t want to read and run, unfortunately I am only 3 weeks post op, so I have literally no idea how to help a year on, I just wanted to send you a hug and to tell you that you need to be kind to yourself, this journey, experience whatever you would call it, is hellish but it’s a journey we have survived. Take it day by day, hour by hour or even minute by minute.

I hope that you can smile this Christmas. Sending hugs from me to you xx

Dear Nina Briston9,

I am so sorry to hear of your ectopic pregnancy and loss.

When we experience ectopic pregnancy we are suddenly faced with a life threatening emergency and it’s treatment, reduction in fertility, concerns about the future and the loss of our babies. Experiencing any one of these is an ordeal, putting them together is immense and your feelings are completely normal. Dates such as anniversaries can be especially difficult as it often reminds us of what could have been. 7years later and I still struggle around the anniversary of our ectopic pregnancy.

Thank you for having the courage to discuss your feelings. When I had my ectopic pregnancy, I too struggled for sometime after and it took 2years for me to gain the courage to tell others how I was feeling. Like you, I reached out to the Trust and here I found it incredibly supportive, realising that I was not alone in how I was feeling. You have friends here who understand.

After a frightening ordeal like ectopic pregnancy, some women find that they suffer from Post Traumatic Stress and symptoms can include anxiety and not being able to focus on everyday things like work. There are a number of avenues that you could look into to get the help that you need.

We at the Trust believe that talking through what happened and your emotions as and when you can helps the healing process. We operate a helpline service and there’s no pressure whatsoever but if you would ever like the opportunity to speak over the phone to someone who has been through a similar experience, do feel free to call, details are below. We can take things at your pace entirely and you are free to ask any questions that are on your mind. You can talk about the ordeal you have been through and express your feelings to vent and let off some steam. We can exchange emails too, if you prefer that route. We’ll simply be here for you, however you wish and for as long as you wish.

In addition, you can ask to see a GP at your practice and ask them to explore ways in which you can get help and this can include referrals for “talking therapies” or counselling. We have information on our website about finding counselling services.

The charity Mind may also be of assistance. They have local centres and support groups and can offer services on a means-tested basis or sometimes free. You can find your local centre following this link if that may be useful too: http://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/local-minds/

After gaining the courage to open up about how I was feeling, I had counselling. During this, I learnt that there is no time frame for how long it takes us to heal emotionally and it is completely normal to feel anxious about the future. Importantly, we will never forget our pregnancy or babies but we can learn to accept what has happened and crucially understand that it wasn’t our fault.

Sending much love and warm hugs,

Karen x


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Mine happened on Easter and due date was Christmas. I also feel Christmas won’t be what it should be. Have you thought about counselling? I myself am contemplating it but feel at this stage I “should be over it” and I’m probably too proud to go for it. In my heart of hearts think that’s probably the right thing to do though.

Hi Nina,

I am so sorry to hear about your loss and of everyone’s loss here xx

I felt exactly the same as you, after approx 7 months post surgery I felt as if , emotionally, I ‘should be healed’ by now, however it does take a long time. I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling. You have been through so much.

If you do have an opportunity to have counselling I would recommend it, even if only for a couple of sessions to offload. It helped me and was a great relief to hear someone say to me ‘you have every right to feel like this’

Another way could be to write everything down, when you’re feeling low write anything, write how you’re concerned about christmas and being a year on. One time I even asked my partner if he wanted to read one of the ‘writing sessions’. He did and I felt so much better that he could read how I felt without any interruptions (such as me getting upset and not able to get my words out).

A year and 6 months on I now write positive ‘memos’ to myself, so that when I do feel low I can read over my previous positive thoughts. Doesn’t always lift my mood, but it’s worth it when it does!

I do hope you and your partner have a good happy christmas xx