Faye has kindly shared her poem with us. We hope it can offer some comfort.
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I wanted to share my poem with you - it might help some other people too
Remember remember the 5th of December…
Today I was suppose to meet you
and hold hold you in my arms
But sadly my arms are empty,
you were taken from me too soon,
There’s not a day, that I don’t think of you and what you would be like, your little hands
and tiny feet and keeping us awake at night,
I miss you every day,
my heart has a permanent hole -
as others around me grow big bellies or coo at their bundles of joy
I feel sad that we never met,
were you a girl or a little boy?
I hope one day to grow you a brother or sister too -
so far this road is long and sad…
with lots of bumps
and great big hills
to keep me on my toes too,
Drs and friends don’t understand
the grief and the struggle that unfolds,
Every month you wait and hope,
then there’s one line and not two
Motherhood not this month
try again soon,
my heart cracks a little more
but what can I do?
My smiles get bigger and bigger
to hide the hurt inside,
each month is its own unique
carousel fair ride!
Although we’ve never met before
you’ll always be
my number one,
fly high my Angel
I love you with all my heart
and I always will,
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By Faye