Well I found out I was pregnant in December of 2006.
I figured that I was because I had a missed period. I went to the doctor and confirmed it. I was immediately set up with a midwife to get my prenatal care started. Well I went in and from the very beginning something in the back of my mind told me it was something different about this pregnancy than it was with my daughter. I kept saying to the doctors “I think this could be ectopic because my body usually tells me something before so far along. Like with my daughter I knew in the back of my mind I was pregnant and I knew from the very beginning. It was like something changed instantly.” Well they kept telling me they were sure things would be fine and it was probably to early to tell how far along I was, but a little voice kept telling me something different. So I went back to the doctors every other day for about a week getting my hormone levels checked. Well they only went up from 1600 to 2300 so that was an indication that something was wrong. So on the last visit to the doctor I got my blood drawn and I left and went to my car. I got to my car and caught a cramp in my side. I just kinda shook it off as one of the cramps that the doctor said I would get because the baby was settling in the uterus. Well I started my car and got about 2 blocks from the doctor and my tube burst. Well I knew that is what just happened because the doctor kept telling me what it would feel like if it happened. They were a little confused about how I didn’t have any symptoms like spotting or other pains in my abdomen. Well I drove home about to black out because I was bleeding into my stomach. I couldn’t move and I couldn’t go to the bathroom. I felt like I had to pee but it was so painful to try to use the bathroom. So my husband drove me back to the hospital and the nurses were trying to get me to go to the bathroom and I told them look I can’t it hurts to bad just get me some kind of pain killer because I feel like I am about to pass out. Well after all the ultrasound and pressing on my stomach to see if I needed surgery or could the pregnancy just be absorbed, I finally ended up having surgery and had to have my left tube removed. I went home 2 days later and it seemed like the world was moving on without me. I felt like everyone even strangers should stop what they are doing to feel my pain. I have come to terms with the loss but it is still hard to sometimes see pregnant women knowing I would be about 5 months pregnant right now if I hadn’t lost the baby. I was 7 1/2 weeks along when I lost our little bundle. Well that’s my story and I am glad that I was able to type all of my emotions and express my experience. It really helps to know that other women respond to and read the posts because I don’t feel so alone. Thankyou!!!