this is my story of my ectopic pregnancy i hope writing this down will be of some help to the acceptance of my loss.
i am 21 years old in a relationship for 3 years and getting married may 2007
on saturday 28th october early afternoon i suddenly had extreme pains in my right side these pains continued for 7 hours my fiancee and friends advised me that we should go to hospital i was insistent that i did not want to go .
that evening i had light spotting this was the first time i suspected i could be pregnant but was confused as my regular period had ended only 6 days previously ,i had never had bleeding between periods before .
in hindsight i should have realised earlier i had been nauseous and vomiting all that week .
the next day my pains were back but not as bad as before i went to the market [i felt terrible and visited my family excacly 24hrs from the onset of the pain it increased again ,this time i wanted to go to the hospital i was rushed there by my fiancee and waiting on 1 hour and a half to be assessed in a and e.
they took a urine sample on hour later the docter saw me and told me i was pregnant , i was shocked and i had hope but also fear as i knew this pain was not normal.
i was taken to early pregnancy assessment and they tried to do on internal but it was too painful ,then they did a transvaginal scan , were they say nothing in my womb except fluid , they werent saying anything but at this stage all my hope had faded, they called the consultant and discussed things by phone
decided i would have a laparoscopy and more pending that .
after several hours delayed i had the procedure at about 10pm took 2hours along with normal surgery to remove my baby and part of my damaged left tube .
after that followed several days in hospital , i was desperate to get out they realised my after 3 and a half days they wanted me to stay four i wanted out after 2days .
the first week i focused on my recovery with occasional breakdowns but now i dont know what to do its 17 days since my surgery and i am heartbroken and desperatly awaiting the 3 months to be over so we can try again .
i am young but i spent 2years previously ttc and thought i never would but when i changed my diet ,bam it happened unfortunately the outcome was not what i wished . i tell myself at least my other tube is apparently is good and now the bad one is gone .
i named my baby Daina - which means song in lithuanian my boyfriends language.
i will always think of her as a baby no matter what anyone says.
so i guess thats it if anyone reads this and wants to talk feel free to contact me
im lonely at the moment and coming to terms with my loss