ok, so i’ve been a member of this forum since my EP last year. i so wish i’d found it with my 1st in 2005. my history…
we had DD in oct '03 so when we decided to ttc #2 we thought, no problem. we got our BFP in jan '05. i had pains about 5 days after getting BFP so went to A&E. i had HcG levels monitered, a laparoscopy where nothing was seen, more HcG, an Evac, more HcG and eventually had MTX because there was a pregnancy but no-one knew where. we were gutted. what more can i say? u all know how i feel.
anyway, our 3mw passed and 2 months later i said to OH, will we ttc again. he said yea, ok. we got our BFP and our early scan was due on my cousins wedding day and we were invited to the full thing. the day of the scan/wedding, i woke up at 5am and couldn’t get back to sleep. of course it was tiredness that caused me to be high as a kite that day. i will never forget the feeling i had that day when i saw my sons heartbeat fluttering away on that screen. nothing will ever beat that.
Ok, next chapter. OH and i decided that we would ttc for #3. of course, since having a baby since the EP, we were confident everything would be fine. anyway, august '07 i came of the pill and it took us about 7 months. march '08 was when i had surgery to remove my right tube. we were gutted. again we went thro the 3mw. straight away i wanted to ttc again coz i was 37 and aware that time was ticking away. so, 2 months ttc i got my BFP again. my 1st instinct was ‘u go girl, 37 and 1 tube and u get BFP.’, the elation didn’t last for long, the PG was a PUL, and with my history, almost certainly EP.
i am so grateful that i have a wonderful DD and DS. in that respect i’m so lucky. i would love to complete my family by having #3. i just dont know if i can do it.
tc, gail xx