Hi, Im Kirsty, I was 24 when I had my EP & this is my story -
I mariied Steve in June 2003, we are childhood sweethearts & have been together since 1996. We have always talkied about having a family & we decided in April 2004 that I should come off the pill so we could start ttc.
I beleive I conceived on our 1st anniversary - I dont know for sure but it all ties in with the dates.
As we hadnt been trying for a long time I had no idea I was pg, my period arrived (or so I thought) in June & my life was just fine. Then on 4th July 2004 I started spotting, as It was only 2 weeks from my last period I thought I would take a pregnancy test & it was positive. I was pleased but as I was spotting I was concerned so went to the Dr the following day. The Dr put my mind at rest, I was in too much pain - I just felt constipated & bloated. She arranged a scan for 7th July. I spent the next few days in Limbo - I didnt want to get my hopes up too much but I had stopped spotting so I figured it would all be OK.
When I went for the scan I looked at the pace of the woman scanning me to see what was going on, but she gave nothing away. She gently explained to me that I would need to see a Dr as she couldnt see anything where she hoped she would but there was something in my left tube.
I was surprised when the Dr said I would have to stay in hospital while they did blood tests & I may possibly need a laprosocpy the following day. I thought I could go home with Steve & we could muddle through together in the comfort of our own home.
The following morning after a sleepless night on a ward full of older women the pain hit me. At least I was in the right place, but I felt rough. My operation was cheduled for some point during the day - whenever they could fit ,e in. But I think as I deterioated they made the decision to get me in theatre ASAP.
The rest is a blur. I woke up & knew I had lost my baby. I was then told I had also lost my left tube. My world fell apart.
I spent nearly 5 days in hospital, I was desperate to leave but at the same time so down that I couldnt bring myself to buck myself up.
I had alot of support from Steve, friends & family but I felt so very alone. I was angry at everyone for what I had gone through. Everytime I watched TV there was a perfect baby, every time I went to the shops a pregnant woman walked by. Whereas before my EP I was unconcerned about how long it took to conceive, my life had turned around so that was all I thought about. In short - I was a mess.
I found this wonderful site purely by accident & have never looked back. My friends on here have helped me to pick up the pieces & I would say you have helped me to become a better person then I was before my EP. With your help I have come to understand what has happened to me - I have learned to love my little angel without feeling so much pain. I know you understand when I feel down on her due date (Feb 28th 2005) and the day the took her away (8th July 2004). I am so grateful to you all for being here for me.
My story has a happy ending, not only have I become a stronger person, I also am fortunate to have given birth to a son. My little boy was born 1 year & 1 week after my EP.
Even so, I will always be a mummy to my little angel, after all I have the scars to proove she was on this earth.