my journey

hello,

this is my story so far. i’m 34 and dh is 38.

we had been ttc for year and a half before we got pregnant but unfortunately had a mc at 8 weeks in aug 04. i had a another mc in feb 05 at just over 4 weeks.

i got pregnant then in april 05. i had early scans at 4 and 6 weeks. the 6 week scan showed a nice sac but i had been having brown discharge which wouldn;t stop (also bled slightly after scan). the gynae doc was going on hols so arranged another scan on the monday with junior doc which i refused but they took bloods. wednesday and thursday i had to go to bed with very bad pain in my side but nausea was increasing. on the friday another consultant sent for me and i tried to refuse the scan but eventually had it. the sac collapsed and the bloods showed an ep.

i had mtx treatment (was on my own as i work in the hospital) and i went home. i was reviewed on the monday and kept due to pain (also bhcg was rising). they prep’d me for theatre but decided i was ok and let me home on the wednesday about 5.30pm. later that night i was chatting on the phone and said to my friend it’s funny but my pain is getting worse. I went to bed and woke at 5am with the most horrific pain. dh thought i was tired and should sleep through it!! eventually woke him up and I got him to rush me back in.

it was the most frighten i have ever been with Nurses and doctors rushing around me. when they got me to theatre and removed my tube discovered it was rupturing. the gynae and surgical team saved my life. i will be eternally grateful to them.

I will always miss my babies esp the ep. we will prob never have our own as i failed to respond to 2 ivf cycles.

i don’t think i will get over the trauma of the loses esp the ep.

sorry for the long story but i needed to tell it.

steph