Just wanted to let you know how much I am missing you little one, you would have been three months old now and I often wonder what you would have looked like, what your cry would have sounded like and how our much wanted family would have been. Daddy and I really wanted you and I just hope that we manage to have a brother or sister for you very soon as waiting is making both of us so very unhappy.
We went to Mummy’s Graduation today love and although it was a lovely day and Grandma, Grandad and Daddy were there, I kept thinking about you as I was studying when I first found out about you and needed to ask for more time to finish my dissertation as things went so wrong in May and I had to have the operation. I’m proud that I kept on with the studies after my operation, but would swap all of my qualifications, possessions and everything in the world, for just the chance to hold you close, kiss you and tell you that Mummy loves you.
Mummy will be starting a new job in two week’s time and everyone keeps saying that a fresh start will do me lots of good, somewhere that people don’t know all about what happened last year and how much I want a family of my own. It is a great job and a big promotion, but all I want is to be a full-time Mummy looking after you - I am just not the career girl that people assume I am.
I just hope that me and Daddy will be okay as we both desperately wanted you and things just haven’t been the same between us since you went away. Mummy is so sorry that her body didn’t manage to get you to a place where you could grow safely.
I hope you know how much we miss you and love you so very much.
Love Mummy xx