This time last year you made Mummy and Daddy the happiest we’d ever been. The feelings you gave us were awesome and will stay with us forever.
Believing in you was just the best.
We began to end your life on the 22 December, ironically at the exact hour that we exchanged our wedding vows the previous year. Bitter Sweet.
Who could have predicted that a year after our beautful wedding we’d be dealing with something so devastating.
I suspect that when the pain starts to go I will treasure the fact that our wedding anniversary is also a day to remember you.
With love always.
xxxx
Another year gone sweets. I wonder if you would have been similar to Ava? I’ll never know. I wish I could put my hand out to reach you, to stroke your cheek. I wish I could believe that I’ll hold you one day but I don’t. I have your little sister now but I want you to know that I still hold your memory in my heart. Sleep tight. Mummy. xxx
I have mixed feelings now but haven’t forgotten you. I look at Ava and I love her so much. I think of you now as part of my journey to get to where I am. Without you I wouldn’t have Ava. I’m very grateful for what I have but I feel like I shouldn’t forget about the little wee ‘sparks of life’ that got me here. I feel sad that your potential was never realised but grateful that you will never know that. You exist in my head and my heart and are remembered for different reasons now.
Merry Christmas little angels.
Mummy.
xxx
Merry Christmas little ones. Ava is 3 now and you have a little brother too, he’ll be 1 on the 29th. Wonder how similiar you would have been. xxx
Gosh have I really not been here for 3 years? Ava is now 6 and Noah about to turn 4 and both full of beans. You two would have been nearly 8. Having two living children makes it hard for me to connect so much now with your memory. Time moves on and life gets busy. I’m not entirely sure how to put it but I wanted to come and mark my place here on your remembrance ‘spot’ as a mark of respect. Bit of a cliche but you’re part of the journey and I wouldn’t have the life I have without your flicker of existence. Thank you. xx