Hi, I’m just looking for some success stories, I’ve now had a miscarriage and 2 ectopics, the 2nd one was in march. I had my right tube removed with the 1st one and decided to have the methotrexate the 2nd time to save my tube.
I’m waiting to see a consultant this month, I know my chances are so low to fall pregnant naturally but I’m remaining hopeful and prepared to try one last time if I have a scan and it shows my tube is clear. I’m so heart broken with it all and it’s just turned me in to a bitter angry n jealous crazy woman n this isn’t me, I’m tired of seeing everyone else and their bumps, it just all seems so unfair.
Trying so hard to move on and just accept it but it’s gut wrenching and so hard to just accept that this is it, it’s getting me down so much. :evil: 
Dear Beamaple17+,
I am so sorry to hear of your ectopic pregnancies and losses,
The feelings you describe are very understandable. You have had so much to process in a very small timeframe - the ordeal of diagnosis, treatment, losing pregnancies and concerns about the future. Any one of these is hard to contend with and putting it all together is immense.
We hear from many women who struggle with news about pregnancy from their friends and families and seeing other pregnant women. This is very normal and I was the same after my loss. When I had my ectopic pregnancy I had to attend a family function and a close family member was heavily pregnant. I spent the whole day and evening avoiding her as I found it too hard to be near her. It’s what I needed to do to get through the day and have some space and please protect your heart in whatever way you need. This does not make us “bad” people and it is possible to be happy for those around us while grieving for our own loss. Pregnancies and babies can be a very stark reminder of what could have been and it can be painful. Please do be gentle with yourself and you can talk to us whenever you need
You will need space to process what has happened and it can feel isolating. With us here at the Trust, we have been through similar experiences and I can understand how lonely it feels. You have a friend here and please do continue to lean on us for as long as you need.
Sending much love,
Karen x
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