I suffered a very traumatic ectopic pregnancy in January this year. I had a methotrexate injection which did not work in my case - was extremely painful and would never wish upon anyone. I then had to have surgery. Scans did not pick up that I was bleeding internally, so after 3 fainting spells I was rushed to hospital where only when about to closed up after surgery, did the MASSIVE internal bleed show itself. I lost all of the blood in my body and very nearly lost my life. My Husband had to witness me in the ICU hooked up to a life support machine like you see in the movies when someone is very near death.
We have been trying for 5 months now as we are desperate to have children. Every month when my period comes, I end up in floods of tears and feel all hope leaving me. I am in need of advice and good stories. Some please give me hope again.
Wow you had it worse than I did. methotrexate week before and rupture and emergency surgery week after in Dec. I was told i was lucky, but I’m not going to even try and take your amazing recovery away from you. What a tremendous recovery.
Now first thing is, Ovulation tests.
We started trying in June and we have just reached week 6 pg today. I strongly believe in the 20pk clear blue tests.
Secondly. I know how upsetting it can be waiting for each month to go but please make sure you use this time to live life to the max. I’ve been to festivals and climbed helvelyn in the lakes only last Tues the day before we found out. I’ve played netball twice a week since Jan and we ended up winning 2 league trophies. I was part of something that otherwise wouldn’t have been. i just gotten out and up and about. I’m not saying it makes thoughts go away because it doesn’t. I used to get upset (always on my own with just me and the crazy mind) but I don’t regret being able to do all that I have this year. And I am still worried now. Although I don’t feel like i did with the ectopic pregnancy, I do worry that its not in the right place or I could miscarry at anytime. We go from one worry to another. Its a rollercoaster. Keep reading everyone’s posts. You will see the success and loving supporting comments every girl on here gives. Never felt so much love from a support forum. This has oodles to give you and everyone in your situation. Its a hard process. Just take time and have fun. And stick with us all on here. Much love to you. Chin up my darling girl x x x x
Thanks so much for your words of encouragement. Im also helping husband get through a serious bout of depression… so im still coming to terms with my isdues and helping him. I feel completely alone at times but it is getting a little easier. But every time my period comes i get in such a state… i even had thoughts of self harm the other day which scared the heck out of me. I also have this irrational fear that when i was cut open furing surgery i wasnt put back together properly… i had to be cut open from my belly button down to my bikini line then all the way across it in an upside down T shape for them to stop my internal bleed. Just want to be a mum so badly it hurts!!! I have also though maybe i only ovulate on my side that is tubless due to having pain there around that time every month… but maybe thats just surgery pain still?? Just hate feeling like crap all the time
All I can say is stay positive. You went through a massive surgery. I just have 3 key hole scars, but I still feel twinges of pain in my left side, even today. Your body takes time. You will get pregnant but you do need to take it slow. Hitting the ovulation dates, eating healthy and just general well being, but I understand its easier said than done. More so with your relationship and how your battling for you both. You may need to seek help. If you had thoughts like you did, then question yourself about who you need to speak to. Can you confide in family??? I’m lucky I could speak to my dad and sister. My passed 7 years ago so together we already have a great little support unit. Could you speak to your parents. After all your their baby and love you. Talking really helps. If not i think you should see your gp. I can’t advise anything otherwise myself. I did feel really low last month but I woke up and just started a fresh next day. If you feel you can’t shake it off the next day i do urge you to get help. Please take good care of yourself. And be positive. There are so many success stories on here and you will be joining them soon. X x x
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All I can say is stay positive. You went through a massive surgery. I just have 3 key hole scars, but I still feel twinges of pain in my left side, even today. Your body takes time. You will get pregnant but you do need to take it slow. Hitting the ovulation dates, eating healthy and just general well being, but I understand its easier said than done. More so with your relationship and how your battling for you both. You may need to seek help. If you had thoughts like you did, then question yourself about who you need to speak to. Can you confide in family??? I’m lucky I could speak to my dad and sister. My Mum passed 7 years ago so together we already have a great little support unit. Could you speak to your parents. After all your their baby and love you. Talking really helps. If not i think you should see your gp. I can’t advise anything otherwise myself. I did feel really low last month but I woke up and just started a fresh next day. If you feel you can’t shake it off the next day i do urge you to get help. Please take good care of yourself. And be positive. There are so many success stories on here and you will be joining them soon. X x x
Yes my family know all about what i went through and am now going through. Im from the US so my mum came to help look after me post op. I have started counselling and i have 2 good girl friends that i chat to when im low. Im starting in a local singing group next week, about to take up archery as i tried it the other month and loved it, and im taking a 2nd beach holiday in Nov to Gran Canaria. I hate seeing other hirls at work that are pregnant too. Its just so incredibly hard to stay positive… the good stories on here are helping
Marvellous! Keep leaning on your family and the girls. They will all want you to succeed in everything you do. And fantastic that your going to start singing. My sister goes to Archery. She’s the proud owner of an burnt orange and purple bow. She starts taking about spec and I admit I zone out. My archery goes as far as watching the hunger games films. But she loves it and you will too. And you lucky thing going on a beach holiday. Now our beaches here are fab for walking the dog. Not so great for catching some rays, nor would you want to dip your toe in the lapping waves without a pair of wellies for protection. Such a lucky so & so to be getting a holiday. Envious! Keep talking to everyone and share how you feel. Take time dwelling and go enjoy the holiday. As people say, you usually catch on when you reduce the personal pressure and enjoy yourself. So use these months as an opportunity to relax, try not to think and then unexpectedly you may work your magic. Take care of yourself special girl x x x
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