Hey MrsAmber,
I am so sorry for your loss and the awful experience you just went through. I can’t imagine going through that much wiht the blood loss and scare you experienced… I can only speak from my own experience which is a bit différent but I hope can help. I had two EPs this past yr, one treated w MTX and one with surgery. I didn’t end up rupturing, but they initally thought I had and started rushing me to surgery before revising their diagnosis. It hasn’t gotten easy and I can’t say I’m over it, but it has been getting easier. I was really freaked out at any pain for a while, and though to some extent I still am, my reactions have smoothed out and become less intense as the weeks have gone. I still feel a lot of sadness and fear but less often and less intense with time.
Give yourself as much time and space as you feel you need and let others care for you if you can. What you’ve gone through is incredibly hard, but with time it will get better, even if it is slow going at first.
Take care. Xo Cam