Hey girls,
Sorry I meant to try msg on here earlier, but iv had a really busy day.
First of all Kate I’ve been thinking of you today… I know it is a hard day for u n I hope ur ok… I’m sending you a big hug 
Thanks girls, Yea my boyfriend did enjoy his birthday n curry thank u.
I agree with u both that it was a lovely gift for my twin sis to have made for me, a rainbow teddy for Arielle coz of what it represents n its so bad what this lady has done n I hope she does give my sis the teddy still or at least a refund for it.
Kate I hope lighting a candle n singing a song brought u some comfort today. Singing a song is a lovely idea.
I too love singing& use to do it a college n uni for performing arts but I love singing for fun… I love karaoke n use to go reg.
Its a lovely idea for u to sing something that is meaningful to u.
I’m so sorry to hear u are ill with thrush and a stye… u must be so run down n I hope u feel better n it clears up for u.
Vitamins are a good idea n I hope they help u.
Nicola I’m happy for you that ur blood results have come back clear. I know what u mean about if they found something it could make u feel it can help with ur next pregnancy.
If it’s if any help to u to know after my two preg losses n not being told there was anything wrong with me that they could fix before I ttc the 3rd time. The only thing I did was eating healthy as I could & exercising. … I still was smoking though coz the waiting to get preg for so long n after everything that had happened before made it too hard for me to quit smoking. Then as soon as I found out I was pregnant for the 3rd time I booked a doc appointment n started taking pregnacare daily which has the right amount of folic acid in it & I quit smoking the night before I tested positive. I haven’t had a fag since n that was January 23rd this year n I still miss smoking but don’t want to start ot up again.
So the only other thing that gave me a healthy pregnancy this time was my positive affirmations & praying & I guess fate.
Remember it took me 7 months this 3rd time apose to me getting preg within a month for my first two pregs.
Don’t give up… it will happen for u and Kate. … I just know it n if it takes a bit more time to happen its coz ur lil prince or princess knows his or her birthday. … that’s what I tell myself about Arielle.
I really can’t wait for the day I hear good pregnancy news from both U Nicola and Kate n I really would love to meet up one day with u both n our babies to meet n have a lil rainbow celebration. I know its so hard for both of u to believe it will happen which is exactly how I felt up until the day I finally got preg again. . But it will happen n il keep praying for you both until u share ur good news.
I know it has been a long while as Arielle is 7 weeks & 5 days old now. … but I’m still sore & healing… I think the pain is a little less often but it can still hurt alot n I def haven’t got my fitness level back to what I had before. … if im still sore in a weeks time il go docs again but hopefully il feel better soon.
I was lil worried as since yes iv started bleeding a little. I thought it was a period but then I realised the blood us coming from my bum as in back passage. Its not much but bright red wen I wiped n there was blood in my shorts n bed… its not much n im a little sore there but I think it could be piles iv heard u can get after birth. If it carries on long il ring docs but hopefully it will stop.
I aam loving being a mum & I feel so lucky n blessed but truth is I do find it hard, with being sore still & the tiredness & I do feel a bit house bound n lonely since having Arielle. Coz I’m at home alot on my own but I know once I heal more il.be able to get out more. Where as I only pop out sometimes to local shops or doctors. Sometimes like today I plan to go shops n don’t make it out coz Arielle is really demanding n although she’s really good. … today she was so hungry n wanted a feed every 2 hrs n wanted to be held alot so I gave up trying to get out… but that is coz I breastfeed which is more demanding n often then bottles. I think in time it will help wen I can get out more. Coz I have lost my confidence alot n feel isolated at times. Its nice family n friends visit wen they can.
Some friends of mine may come over sat as they want me to go for an early birthday drink to a pub near mine but iv made ut clear if they do come that I don’t know if im up for going out coz if my pains n coz I don’t know if I can leave Arielle yet. Iv left her with her dad a few times for like an hr to go to the shops but that is different. So if my friends come here on sat we may just stay in at mine.
I’m on maternity leave til August n I definitely don’t want to go back to my nursery Job… its too far to travel n rubbish money n my bosd doesn’t treat staff well m I wouldn’t want to leave Arielle for the 12 hrs a day I’d be out if the house. But I would like to go back to work in a new job hopefully as a Teaching Assistant like I use to do but closer to my home n part time hrs… but I wouldn’t think of working again until Arielle us about age 1 or maybe age 2… il see how I feel as she gets bigger. But as im sure be the same for both of u wen u have ur baby u just want to stay home n look after them. I find it harder work than I expected n its hard to not grt time for urself much n lack of sleep us tough but its amazing to have her n the love u have for them… which u two will definitely have one day soon too
Kate I’m pleased u are having ur tests so soon on Thursday n ur scan next Tuesday. Its definitely good they are doing them so soon n out the way for Xmas. I hope all goes well on Thursday. … will be thinking of u.
Nicola definitely read all information to decide but I think maybe scanning so often every two weeks could be a bit much especially as for ur next pregnancy u want to relax more for it.
That is such a great idea to learn something new to have something else to focus on is definitely a great positvr idea. Sometimes if im feeding down I sing songs I love with backing tracks or karaoke version. … I just go on to u tube… I love it n its therapeutic n releases my emotions sort off.
Im intrigued to what this piece of music is u love Kate. … by any chance is the advert of it sped up? Coz iv got one of them wind up music boxes I brought on a holiday in Paris n it plays such a lovely tune n iv heard a faster version of it on a tv advert n its so lovely but I don’t know what its called or the meaning. …its just so relaxing.
Iv played the music box to Arielle before to relax her.
Nicola that is a lovely idea to plant something in memory of ur lost babies.
Kate definitely don’t exercise til ur well enough to.
I hope u got some comfort from lighting ur candle n playing ur song.
I feel for u coz I know how hard today has been for u and now u have other things to focus on but its all for good reasons.
Take one day at a time. … first get through tomo… I hope it goes ok… just remember to breath n know its all positive to help u for ur future healthy baby.
I hope both of u are ok…
Coz I don’t get to come on here as often now suddenly iv so much to catch up on us why my msg is so long.
I best try get some sleep now while I can…
My thoughts are with u both Nicola n Kate n im sending u both hugs n positive vibes n prayers.
Love Toni x x x
It can be really tiring coz