You should be getting excited for your 3rd birthday soon. I guess you would know what a birthday was. Life took some unexpected twists since we found out you weren’t going to join us but I think of you lots and know we’d have been having lots of fun together in the sunshine today. I bet Daddy would have taught you all about cranes already!
Holding hands forever.
Aye well September bubs, here we are again; you’re not here and neither are the others, but I can raise a smile at the what-might-have-beens, because that’s another life that just never happened.
xxx
(((Angie)))
Love
Hayley xx
I know I will feel better if I mark this non-existing ‘occasion’ somehow and here at the EPT is best. It’s late, I’m tired and I know for sure I will feel better in the morning and feel very silly but right now I think it’s very unfair that I am tripping over my dogs’ empty bowls instead of my 6 year olds toys or schoolbag.
So yes, I have learned a lot by my losses and not being able to have a family, about acceptance and about not being able to have everything you want even if you stamp your feet or flutter your eyelashes and about taking lifes knocks square in the face and getting up and carrying on with your fists clenched to give as good as you get and about learning to find the positives in your situation whatever that may be. Very occasionally I think it would have been lovely to have just had the family instead. I suppose that brings another whole set of challenges though and presumably not all of them are fun and games either.
Well now my gorgeous doggie Douglas (aged nearly 3 8) ) has come to say hello and see what’s up and he has the hiccups. And I do feel better so I thank you for reading my nonsense if indeed you are.
Night all x