Five years ago today I went through the worst experience of my life when my first and much longed for pregnancy was diagnosed as being ectopic. I had emergency surgery and lost my right fallopian tube. I was absolutely devastated. These boards kept me sane and the support and care that i recieved was amazing - I really think i would have gone mad without them! Those months from July and especially over Christmas were terrible - I have 2 step children so was surrounded by family and kids but didn’t have my baby and i really struggled with this. I couldn’t even bare to see my baby neice as seeing babies just torn me apart.
Finally in April my dream came true when i fell pregnant again - i spent most of my pregnancy being terrified that it would all go wrong again but in December our beautiful son was born. Not without drama as he was born by emergency section; had to be resusitated due to septiceamia and spent a week in ITU. BUT he was fine and came home and i have truely never felt happiness like it. I really thought it would not happen for me but it did and he is an absolute joy - i feel truely blessed to have him. He is 3.5yrs now and a chatty, noisy, loving little boy who makes me laugh every day. I do still think of my ectopic baby and that my little boy has an older sibling up in heaven - i hope he or she is watching over him.
i just wanted to share my story to show those of you who are going through this now that there can be happy endings and not to give up on your dreams. The ladies you meet on this board are amazing and inspirational.
Lucy xxxx