A message of hope
A year ago I was in agony 10 days post emergency surgery to remove an ectopic pregnancy and losing my left tube.
I was trawling these forums for support and reading people’s experiences not knowing anyone in real life who truly knew what it felt like to lose a baby in this way.
I am sorry you are going through this, it is truly so painful and devastating to go through and can feel so isolating.
In the space of a week between the sheer delight of a positive test after ttc my world was torn apart.
A whole week being pregnant and picturing life with my baby. I didn’t even know what an ectopic was when the Dr scanning me talked about how we couldnt do the ‘wait and see’ approach (expectant management) and I thought that meant wait and see if baby would move to the right place.
The days that followed the operation were dark and despairing, I cried and cried and retreated and could not bear to hear about other people’s babies or look to any kind of future.
In my wildest dreams I never imagined I would be holding my baby girl in my arms a year later.
Reaching out on the forums, grieving the loss of my baby, crying, calling/emailing helplines, finding articles/blogs/success stories and eventually talking all were a source of support. I found by opening up many women shared losses they had faced with me - I found out my auntie had an ectopic before she had my cousins and I had never known, friends and their mums told me things that had happened to them. I was grateful to hear their experiences and success stories and this all helped find the strength to face all the anxiety involved in trying again, which was terrifying but all utterly worth it.
So sending hope and strength to those that might need to hear it - wishing you your rainbow babies too 
xxx
