It feels right that during baby loss awareness week that I return to a place that I spent a lot of time many years ago.
In March 2014, my first pregnancy was an ectopic and it resulted in emergency surgery to remove one of my tubes. I was so excited about expecting my first child but equally anxious. I was devastated to lose the baby and in the way that we did. We unfortunately had a period of bad luck which followed which saw me away from my husband and close family when I needed them most.
I fell pregnant very quickly the first time and for me, I wanted to try again as soon as it was safe as I hoped for the same. This didn’t happen the second time as it took over a year to conceive. It was a very upsetting time where I feel I lost myself and it seems like there were baby announcements all around me. The date when the baby was due was very tough.
I would look on these chat rooms for positivity during the hard times and struggle to see how I would get there.
I write this message today holding my third baby. I am incredible blessed that my one tube has gone on to produce 3 beautiful healthy babies.
For anybody going through these tough times, I send you my love and hope that you will get your happy time. Please be kind to yourself and plan some lovely things for you. I was mentally broken when we started trying to conceive again and it was only after truly taking the time to heal that we feel pregnant again.