At the moment i feel like i just want to find someone who knows how i’m feeling, no matter which way i turn at the moment nobody truely understands. I am a very private person and only a few of my closest family and friends actually know the story so far. For the past five years my husband and i have been trying for a family. We never thought that creating a life would be so stressful and so difficult to achieve. I always thought i would get pregnant within the first months but how wrong would i be. After a while we were given clomid to try but with no sucess. We were then referred to a fertility clinic as our infertility was unexplained. We had three treatments of IUI and then moved onto IVF. We have endured two courses of IVF and my recent ended up with the removal of my left tube after the discovery that it was ectopic. I was treated with methotrexate initially but my levels kept raising. I’m off work at the moment but they don’t know the reason why. I feel so alone at present and just want someone to say ‘I know how you’re feeling’. My husband, mum and close friends have been brilliant but i still feel they don’t truely understand and i think people are so concerned for my health they have forgotten that inside me was a baby that i truely loved. I was only seven weeks pregnant but it was a feeling i had never experienced before. Physically i feel week but emotionally i feel numb, i feel like bursting into tears at slightest thing. I am so relieved to have found you site, i’ve read a number of stories and for once i can relate to the thoughts and feelings of the people accesssng this site.
Thank you
Claire 