I never posted here, never noticed it. I initially came to the site because i found out in june i was pregnant again and it brought everything rushing back. Had some blood spotting and for weeks was terrified something bad was about to happen.
I say again because i first got pregnant in october 06. It was a very bad time for my OH and me at the time. He was unemployed and struggling to pay his rent etc, we were in loads of debt due to this and the fact i was in college and also not working. Amid all this stress i got the BFP. I wish i could say we were celebrating but i was heartbroken. not because of the baby but i knew we were in such a hole we’d never be able to bring a baby into that and give it a decent life. OH was happy to a degree, since we first got together he’d wanted children but definitely not in the situation we were in. It was 25th december, in the evening that i got at first just light stabbing pains, they didnt hurt just tingled in a weird way. Within minutes they progressed to deep stabbing pains that levelled me, i couldnt stand or walk. It was just me and OH he wanted to call an ambulance but i really didnt want to. I called my mum (who didnt know i was pregnant) and she took me straight to hospital because i was in agony. I got inside sat down and passed out, a nurse woke me up and took me straight in to see the doctors, who i told i was pregnant. They doped me up to stop the pain but i was sick and couldnt stop throwing up. However due to it being xmas day and a saturday they had noone to scan me to see if it was ‘really’ an ectopic, and noone to perform surgery. And so i lay in the bed all night (passed out twice more during that time, once when they were trying to put me in a wheelchair to go scan me). The tube ruptured the following morning, no longer pain free so i literally couldnt lie straight on the bed i was arched up. I was taken straight to surgery poor OH was distraught convinced i was dying and also he had to deal with my parents who just found out i was pregnant the hard way (and they didnt approve of sex before marriage!)
After surgery i felt kind of fine. I lost a whole lot of blood and blood count was really low. I was in Intensive care when i came out and then HDU. I was in a week over all and hated it! took a while to recover and every night i lay in the hospital i cried for my baby. We didnt TTC for nearly 2 yrs when we were in a much better situation. Sadly i had a m/c at 7 weeks in march this year. Now im back 3rd time lucky im 11+2wks today and so far (fingers tightly crossed) so good! And we married in march so parents are a little (teeny tiny) bit more happy haha.