Hello,
My partner recommended this site too me to try and get me to identify the feeling that I don’t know I am having.
Jsut over a month ago my partner rang me crying in agony unable to move. I said for her to ring 111 while I rush home. When I got home I came to seeing my very strong partner curled up in a ball crying.
111 had said they would call back in 2 hours or we should call them back if the pain got worse. We waited over 2 hours and had no call back and as things weren’t getting better we called again. Same again we had to wait for a doctors call back but the difference is we had a less of a wait and was told to head to a&e.
It was the longest 30 minute drive I have ever done. Trying to keep my partner awake and not passing out was a very difficult thing.
I had to walk her into the a&e and put her in a chair and speak to the receptionist. Being told I couldn’t go with her hurt. I waited for hours for her to call.
When she did she explained she was being transferred to the gynecology department at a different hospital. And that she had done a pregnancy test and it was positive (this was a shock as we weren’t planning to have a child yet). All I could do at that point was go home and wait not knowing what was happening.
She finally rang to say they were going to rush her into surgery and that I could bring her clothes and if I was quick I can see her before she goes down. I rushed there and was thankful to get there just in time before she went.
The operation went well and she is making a good recovery physically. Mental recovery is taking its time.
What I find hard is to express and know what to feel. The whole event happened so fast I just don’t know how I should feel. I am very good at putting my emotions into a box and sitting on them as I am putting her recovery and needs before mine.
Thanks,
Dave