Hi,
I’ve posted a couple of times about our journey, and I just wanted to post again now in the hope that our story, while not what we would of wished for might give you some hope that a positive ending is possible.
In 2019 I got pregnant for the first time, unfortunately this pregnancy was found to be a missed miscarriage at our 12 week scan, we were completely heart broken and I was booked in for an ERPC a week later.
3 months later I was pregnant again and this pregnancy resulted in our first rainbow baby. <3
Just before she was 1 there was a month we thought we were pregnant again, but ended up not being, this made us want to try again and knowing that things don’t always go to plan we thought it would be a good idea to start earlier than we thought we might originally.
I got a positive test about a week before her first birthday, however on that same trip to the toilet I started spotting. I had read lots about different types of losses after our first miscarriage and knew about “chemical pregnancys” so thought that was what was happening. My bleeding then got heavier with lots of cramps. We were going on holiday a couple of weeks later and had spotting throughout so when we came back I took another test and it was more positive than before. This was the beginning of lots of hospital trips for blood work and scans and eventually they confirmed I had an ectopic pregnancy in my left tube and it needed to be removed.
Shaken, scared, but still very much wanting another baby we tried again after 3 months, we got pregnant straight away and unfortunately it was another chemical pregnancy and ended very quickly.
The next month I was pregnant again and we had another holiday booked for my mother in laws 60th birthday. While we were there I wasn’t feeling well, and on the day we were due to fly home I became very unwell and was rushed to hospital with a lot of internal bleeding. I needed surgery to save my life, as it was another ectopic pregnancy which had attached to the stump of my removed tube and the outside of my uterus.
I’ll never be able to explain how horrendous it was for us all, and I’m still getting some counselling to work through it all.
We again waited 3/4 months, but this time we were so scared about trying again. We got pregnant 2 more times and both were chemical pregnancies, ending very early.
Then in September 2022 we tried again, only this time we decided it would probably be our last month of trying, we didn’t know if we would just have a break for a year or if would decide to only have 1 child. The mental and physical toll of the last couple of years was really starting to hit and we didn’t think we could take any more.
Again I was pregnant, and terrified. I received amazing care by the early pregnancy unit, my GP and midwife. I was scanned every 10-14 days from 5.5 weeks to 13 weeks. This was to make sure that the pregnancy was in the right place, was progressing, and that there was no bleeding.
I was also recommended to take aspirin for the first 12 weeks.
I can’t say I relaxed during this pregnancy, or enjoyed it, but with a lot of support and talking to my husband we got through it.
Just over 6 weeks ago our second rainbow baby arrived, so healthy, so loved, and so so longed for. She has completed our family and although I wish we hadn’t had the journey we did, I am so happy that we kept trying and that everything has led us to our two beautiful girls.
I really hope that if you’re reading this it might give you some hope to a future where a beautifully healthy baby is possible. There were so many times where I didn’t believe it myself.
<3
