Figured I’d get the Feb post going…
Baby dust, strength and positivity to all
Thankyou Butterfly! All the best this month. I’m biting my nails a bit as I have surgery on the 19th. Once I’ve recovered from that we’ll have much more idea what our situation is baby-wise.
Much love this month ladies,
Chez
Gosh I can’t believe February is here already.
Chez - will be thinking of you on the lead up to the surgery, I hope it gives you the answers you are looking for.
Positivity, love and strength to all xx
hi guys,
it’s nice to be back here with you all.
i think i just ovulated (i have a very short 26 day cycle so got two chances in january!) and gave it my best shot… we will see. i’m trying so hard not to think about it - i’m thinking instead “why not?” as in, why couldn’t i get pregnant - it is possible and i did it before!
but also i noticed so many of my friends who got pregnant quickly had been on the pill and thought they wouldn’t get pregnant so quickly. i’ve never taken the pill so didn’t have that relaxed attitude. instead i’ve been trying to mind trick myself into relaxing by thinking “oh, i probably didn’t ovulate so no point expecting anything…”.
but that’s also made me think, some months when i ovulate i have pain and others i don’t. the pain is on my side with a fallopian tube. actually i have not used an ovulation test stick since my ep so perhaps i really haven’t ovulated at all! so, i’m wondering whether i should ov test… but also whether pain where i have a fallopian is nevertheless a good or a bad sign. it could be good pain because it means something is happening, or bad because the fallopian tube is trying to get to the other ovary? any words of wisdom out there?
so, as you can see, not thinking about it at all… :lol:
baby dust, everyone!
chez - your op is on my birthday so i will remember and be thinking of you!
butterflyrose - sorry it wasn’t your month. keep going 
countrysidecrazy - well done on staying calm! i’ll keep my fingers crossed for you.
redfairy - how are you getting along?
Hey ladies,
Blimey, February already!
I’m good thanks next-time, busy with work so have lots of distractions during my 2ww. I think that maybe if it will answer some questions for you, you should opk… But beware, peeing on a stick is addictive!
So I’ve noticed that recently I’ve had sore bbs right from ovulation up to af… Very confusing when you’re looking for pg symptoms! I googled it… Some say its normal, some say you should only have it just before af, and others say I have a thyroid problem! Lesson learned?.. Don’t google.
Happy baby making all… February is the month of love 
Fingers still crossed for you countryside.
Redfairy I now get sore books from ovulation to af starting!! Never used to though but has definitely happened past two cycles maybe more
Next time my cycles are 23 days so even shorter!! I keep thinking I’ve managed to get pregnant 3 times previously so I know my body can do it. Trying to keep out the thoughts that maybe the ectopic broke my body!!!
I have phone consultation with gp in a couple of weeks to discuss my changed cycle.
Baby dust for all.
Butterfly and Redfairy - I also get sore boobs from ov to AF now. It’s too confusing. So many of the signs for AF are the same as signs towards a BFP. It’s a little mean if you ask me.
Am due on today… Waiting for AF to show up as I am certain she will.
Hope all of you are well. Chez not long until your investigative op and hopefully some answers too.
Next time - do you have nice things planned for your birthday?
XxX
Keeping everything crossed for you countrysidecrazy.
Baby dust to all xxx
Fingers crossed countryside xx
Hey ladies,
I’m glad you have a consultation arranged, it can be reassuring to get some answers. You haven’t broken your body… I’m sure you’re still perfectly healthy and you will get your good news soon.
Countrysidecrazy, you’re right, it is mean. Any signs of af? Still hopeful for you.
Chez, will be thinking about you for your op, when is it again?
Next-time, when is your birthday? I hope you have a day if treats and indulgence planned.
I keep getting the twinges and flutters in my uterus that I had when I was pregnant… But then I also had them last month, which was a false alarm. I wonder if anyone has done any research into weird changes that happen when a woman has had an ectopic. i just feel like I dont know my body anymore, whereas previously I was so in tune with myself.
Only seven days left of 2ww for me, trying to be strong.
Baby dust to all xxx
hey!
countryside, i’m thinking of you and hoping you get what you are hoping for!
thanks for asking about my birthday, redfairy and countrysidecrazy. it’s on the 19th, same as chez’s operation.
i’ll just have a meal with friend’s as it is not a special birthday and i have to work that day. meh! i don’t really feel like going wild ‘just in case’, but then i feel like i have missed a few experiences ‘just in case’ and it has not been worth it! so maybe i will go wild!? i am guessing af will have shown up by then, so i will know if i can go wild.
as you know, i had crazy pg symptoms last month and nothing. i agree that symptoms are all over the place but can mean nothing. i’m trying to dismiss any symptom spotting as something else and it is helping. especially after last month i am trying not to wind myself up…
just realised the baby i lost would have been due around now. would have been a nice birthday present!.. mind you, met another friend’s new baby today and whilst it was lovely, it all seemed a bit chaotic… every cloud?!
baby dust, gals x
The time you would have been due is a hard one. Mine was back in October, I was on holiday at the time (booked deliberately to cover that day). My husband and I just made sure we had a lovely day and took time to feel sad about what may have been.
I’m out, AF arrived. Feeling a strange mix of emotions at the moment. I’m sad as I always secretly hope to get the answer I long for yet also a little relieved as it was exactly a year ago today I found out I was pregnant last time and I so don’t want history to repeat itself. The matching dates would have been emotionally difficult for me.
So onwards I go. March is the month that I have to go back to the GP if we haven’t conceived. That terrifies me as I don’t know anyone whose had fertility treatment that has been successful.
Trying to keep positive, might go for a relaxing swim later and get my head round it all.
Lots of love to you all
Xx
hi countrysidecrazy,
i’m sorry to hear that af came. i was totally expecting it to be this month for you. i know many people who have had successful fertility treatment so please don’t think it wouldn’t work if you had to go there. it has been a very quick and successful solution for several people i know. also, i know of a few people who couldn’t get pregnant and so adopted or were about to start ivf, or even gave up having ivf, and then fell pregnant successfully. so please don’t assume this is the end of the line for you at all.
maybe have a glass of wine, go to the cinema, eat some seafood… some things you wouldn’t have been allowed!
perhaps your body new that this anniversary was not the right time too?
but of course, it is always disappointing. sending you love and strength today. remember we are all here for you. xx
Sorry af arrived, still hard when you’re expecting it! Tough timing for you too xxx big hugs.
I have a friend her little girl was from fertility treatment following ectopic pregnancy. There are success stories too.
Big hugs countrysidecrazy. I’m so sorry.
Keep your chin up, we are all thinking about you.
Xxx
Thank you all for your kind words. also thank you for telling me the success stories of your friends. It has meant so much to me and given me back hope.
Today is a new day and I am determined to restore my positivity and look towards the next month.
Your support is invaluable, lots of love to you all.
Xx
I’m sorry to hear that Countryside, you’re right, even when you’re expecting it it’s still confronting.
Red fairy I’ve read your posts about feeling out of touch with your body since the Ep, and I can totally relate! My cycle went weird, sharp pains in the side of the Ep, hot flushes, headaches and insomnia! My goodness, it’s amazing we can still function (most days). I did find it settled down around 8 months post surgery, and has felt quite normal now that it’s been nearly 18 months.
I have 3 friends who went on to have children after an ep, so I try to remind myself of their success!
I went to see my friend yesterday, who has the most beautiful two year old girl. She was literally trying for one week before getting pregnant with her… But since has had 2 blighted ovums. We were talking about how hard it is to see people getting pregnant easily, but she has obviously had both experiences. It was really nice to talk to her as she helped me to see that really we have very little control over what happens… The baby making game is about miracles. So I’m just hoping that we all get our miracles some time soon… I think that trying to see it this way will stop the symptom spotting and testing early etc.
Hubby’s birthday today… Had a lovely day, just enjoyed each others company. Something which will be hard when we have a little one!
Best wishes ladies. Baby dust xxx
hey everyone,
i went to see another friend with a 2 month old baby today and was kind of dreading it. but actually it was nice. and he is a very cute baby. sometimes i guess it is good to just go and see someone and see if it really will be as painful as you think. but also i think time really helps. like i feel a lot better about everything than i did (still not totally over it of course) so i can see the good side of things more.
i’m halfway through my 2ww and sore boobs just started. this was a pregnancy symptom before, but i also had it last month really bad and was not pregnant. so like others have said this month, i don’t feel like i know my body and i don’t want to even think it means anything good… i feel like i’d be setting myself up for disappointment and i am trying to be calm this month. really trying not to symptom spot, but it is hard when you know so well what the symptoms might look like. my husband said this morning: your boobs are looking bigger! and i replied: don’t even go there! we will know in a week…!
trying to be strong and sending you all strength too xx