Hi all,
I am new to EPT and been reading all these amazing stories of despair and hope, sadness and joy. I had to share my story with you all.
On Sep 17, 2008 I experienced the worst day of my life. About 2 weeks before that horrible day it was a fantastic day and found out I was pregnant. After about 4 months of trying we were expecting baby #3. We have 2 fantastic boys 4 years and 18 mths. So it was really exciting to give them another brother or sister. I felt so confident that I told my oldest boy. I had no reason to feel like this was to be a failed pregnancy as both boys were conceived in under 4mths and had relatively no complications until the last trimester as I had reoccurring UTI. My oldest came 7 weeks early possibly because of this. But youngest came on time with some help from meds. So my anxieties were generally associated with the last trimester not the first trimester.
Everything was going fine for the first few days after my BFP then I started to spot. I didn’t have any pain except one night I can remember feeling uncomfortable but didn’t dawn on me until only recently that there may have been a connection. The spotting continued for about 6 days and finally plucked up the courage to go to the DR. He did a blood test and because it was Friday I wasn’t going to get the result until Monday. I mentioned the spotting and he said it was likely to be late implantation. So put in the back of my mind.
I was trying to stay positive and still had really strong pregnancy symptoms (nausea, sore (.)(.), peeing heaps etc…) so this is good!! As long as I feel like this everything is ok. One day after seeing the Dr I had a little more bleeding and it was brighter in colour. Take myself to emergency and all they did was urine test and feel my abdomen. Dr said take it easy come back if I get cramping or more bleeding. Stupid me agreed and went home.
Everything was starting to settle and I was to get my quantitative beta hgc on Wed and that would confirm everything ok. Wed morning had more bleeding and felt that this wasn’t right. I was getting really upset and thought I need to get back to the hospital. I was now 6w 2d and not prepared for the worst news of my life. This time I gave blood and urine for testing, internal examination and ultrasound. And then it started… the ultrasound tech girl did abdomen first and couldn’t find anything and then did internal scan that was the longest couple of minutes in my life. I asked her if she could see anything and she replied ‘can’t find anything in your uterus but found a mass in your left tube’ I was numb and didn’t know what to feel. She sent me back to my room and on the way back I thought how do I tell people that I am not pregnant…my DH, DS1 my family. Mum was thankfully with me and the first person to tell. All I could say was ‘Im not pregnant’ and tears flowed from there. DH came soon after and was scheduled to have my my EP removed that afternoon.
The next week I was numb and just functioned. My boys sensed something and my oldest ask about the baby. We decided to tell him we made a mistake and Mummy isn’t going to have a baby. This was heart wrenching and many days after he kept touching my belly and asking where the baby went. How else do you tell a 4 year old Mummy had a EP. Exactly one week after I felt stronger both physically and emotionally. But still had many unanswered questions.
The Dr that removed the EP said my left tube needed to be removed and was close to rupture and the right tube was abnormal (she described it as squiggly). No signs of endo or any other visible reproductive problem problems. Healthy ovaries and uterus but a squiggly right tube. So can I have another baby naturally? After seeing my OB Dr and Gyne Dr they all said there is still a chance of future EP but the odd are on my side for a naturally conceived viable preg.
Well now into the end of my 3rd cycle after the EP and have been charting and waiting. This is the first month we have tried since the EP. I am a nervous wreck. think I am about 13 DPO and feel pregnant but last 2 test BFN. I could have put money on AF starting yesterday with usual headache,cramping and spotting but no AF. Still spotting and no real PMS. Have been getting some mild stitch like pain every now and then on my good side but higher up and near my ribs front and back. I keep hoping this is not another EP. But how can it be if keep getting BFN? My temps show that I ovulated 13 days ago and my temps have been slowly increasing after O and now plateaued (well above AF temp). Usually they drop fairly quickly the day before or day of AF that I thought I was getting yesterday. Very confused…