I have had a ruptured ectopic pregnancy. went for a scan thinking it was ok and I would see a heartbeat at this point. Never happened sent home confused. Colapsed and my son at 12 found me on the floor. Unconscious and had internal bleeding.
If he never found me I was told I would not be here. My partner I was going through domestic abuse with. Was there I had my fallopian tube removed by emergency. I tried to recover but he had physically hurt me after I was out of the hospital. My stiches in my stomach. I have left him. But now after the relationship ending and having two kids very young. No partner and really desperately wanted this baby alone or not. I am struggling with losing this baby is anyone else the same. Does it get better mentaly
Firstly I’m so sorry to hear what you have been through.
I too suffered a ruptured ecptopic pregnancy at the end of June which resulted in internal bleeding and having to be rushed into emergency surgery, all whilst overseas.
It is not an easy journey to be on, both in terms of physical and mental healing but with time you do learn to grow with it. It is not something I will ever be able to get over but I have accepted that it happened and I am learning to take each day as it comes. Something I keep being told by others is to be kind to yourself. You must recognise that what you have been through is a traumatic event and giving yourself time to process and heal is key. I have found it really helpful having regular calls with the EPT team as it is comforting speaking to someone that understands what you are going through.