Our Little Bright Star - I wrote this after my first pregnancy which turned out to be ectopic pregnancy. It helped me to explain how both me & my husband were feeling.
Hope you enjoy reading it .
2010 was meant to be our year
Marriage, pregnancy & great cheer
Oh how things change so so quick
From joy to sadness it makes me sick
To see the positive on the test
Meant more to us, it felt the best
Our first born due in the month of May
Excited to find out the exact day
Had an early scan but nothing was found
Sure our little bright star is somewhere in there safe & sound
Blood test taken, to check my the count
Cause midwives had a spek of doubt
Bloods not normal, what did this mean?
Yet another scan hoping our little bright star to be seen
Nothing again, so we start to worry
We want some good news now so please please hurry
The waiting game is just the beginning
We both no longer hear the joyful singing
Where is our little bright shining star?
We start admiring pregnant women from afar
No pain No bleeding No symptoms at all
Feel like we are hitting our heads against a brick wall
The waiting & wanting is getting quite bad
Just holding it together is making us sad
They mention ECTOPIC, but what does this mean……?
They say our little bright star is not to be seen
But I’m sure the bright star fell from the sky up above
For both me and my husband to show it our love
But the star that we caught just wasn’t quite right
It shone to a point, but just had lost it’s fight
The brightness it had is beginning to dim
Menthatrexate was given, it’s futures now grim
5 weeks have gone and we must now let you go
Back to the night sky with our love now in tow
Up high on Grinshill we showed you we cared
As we watched you rise high as we stood & stared
Our little bright star we loved you so much
But it wasn’t to be, us never to touch
It hurts us a lot as we are not the baddy
We just wanted to be your mummy & daddy
Good night little bright star you are now free
To look upon us, your daddy and me
Our hands will be open in 2011
To catch another little bright star sent to us from heaven.
