I had my ectopic at the end of March. We had been trying for a little over 1 year, and when I found out I was pregnant it was almost pure shock, it had finally happened. I had been through several rounds of fertility test, and they nothing ever came up positive and we were getting very frustrated.
Then the following week I started to spot and having some cramps. I called my doctor and they had me come in for an ultrasound, and could not find anything. I was between 7-8 weeks along, so they should have seen something. They said I was most likely having a miscarriage and maybe a ectopic. They did blood work to check my levels, and I was to come back in 2 days. The next day I woke up and could not even stand up, because the pain was so bad. I went to the hospital, and my doctors checked my levels again, and they were almost 1000 points higher then the day before. Since they could not see anything on the ultrasound, they felt that even with surgery they might not be able to find it. They gave me the metho. shot and sent me home. The next week I had server cramps and a lot of pain and bleeding. So I was pretty sure that it was over. Went back for blood work 2 times that week and levels kept increasing. Had to have another metho. Shot, and sent home again. This time the pain was so bad, had to go to the hospital one day for pain meds and observation. This time it did work.
This whole ordeal has been very hard on me, and to make maters worse, my best friend for over 15 years, is pregnant by accident, and her significant other does not even want the baby and has left her as a result. I am really happy for her, but find it really hard to be around her, or anyone else who is pregnant. I am very angry and upset at what had happened. I think if they could tell me why this happened it would be easier to accept. I have had them “look” at my tubes with the dye injections, last week, and they cannot give a definite answer if they are block or scared now.
It is really nice to find that there are so many others who have been through the same thing, and have similar feelings. I sometimes feel like the only one who has these feelings, and feel guilty about being so angry and bitter.
I look forward to talking with all of you.
Isabella