HELLO EVERYONE,
I’M A NEWBY AND HERES MY STORY…
IT ALL STARTED ABOUT FOUR YEARS AGO, WE’D BEEN TTC FOR FOR ABOUT 18 MONTHS, WE HAD TESTS DONE WITH THE GP AND WAS THEN REFERRED TO THE HOSPITAL AS ALL TESTS HAD COME BACK NORMAL. I HAD A LAPAROSCOPY TO FIND I HAD TWO BLOCKED TUBES, OUR OPTIONS WERE TO HAVE THEM OPENED BUT THEY COULD BE BADLY SCARED AND STILL MAY NOT BE ABLE TO CONCIEVE OR GO STRAIGHT DOWN THE IVF ROUTE. WE WERE UNABLE TO GET ANY NHS FUNDING FOR IVF DUE TO MY HUSBAND HAVING 2 CHILDREN FROM HIS PREVIOUS MARRIAGE, SO I HAD MY TUBES OPENED. ALL WAS WELL, AFTER 6 MONTHS I STILL HADN’T CONCIEVED SO I HAD A HYCOSY TO CHECK THAT THEY HAD REMAINED OPENED AND EVERYTHING LOOKED FINE. 8 MONTHS LATER I HAD MY FIRST BFP, I WANTED TO GET EXCITED BUT IT WAS HARD AS HAVING MY TUBES OPENED CAME ALONG WITH A RISK OF EP, AFTER A WEEK I STARTD TO BLEED AND HAD WHAT WE BELIEVE WAS A BIO CHEM. THEN ANOTHER SIX MONTHS PASTED AND NOTHING SO WE DECIDED TO GO DOWN THE IVF ROUTE, IT BROKE THE BANK AND COULD ONLY AFFORD THE ONE TREATMENT AND I’M SORRY TO SAY IT FAILED. I KEPT IN CONTACT WITH MY CONSULTANT AT THE HOSPITAL AND ASKED IF I COULD HAVE A NOTHER HYCOSY AS I KNEW MY TUBES COULD RE CLOSE AT ANYTIME, SO I DID AND A MONTH AFTER I HAD A NOTHER BFP, EACH TIME I HAD A BFP I HAD TO GO STRAIGHT TO MY CONSULTANT WHO DID MY HCG BLOOD TEST TO CHECK MY LEVELS WERE RISING, BUT AGAIN IT LOOKED LIKE IT WAS COMING AWAY, WE WERE DUE TO GO ON HOLIDAY AND HAD TO CANCEL DO TO MY LEVELS NOT DROPPPING AND HAVING NO BLEED THIS TIME, AND IT WAS A SUSPECTED EP AFTER TWO WEEKS OF STRESS AND HEARTACHE MY LEVELS FINALLY CAME DOWN ON THERE OWN. THEN FEBRUARY OF THIS YEAR I HAD ANOTHER BFP BUT AFTER A WEEK IT WAS ANOTHER SUSPECTED BIO CHEM AND NOW FOR THE THIRD TIME THIS YEAR I AM AWAITING FOR MY HCG RESULTS, I’VE HAD A SLIGHT BLEED AND THEN NOTHING AND I’M CONVINCED ITS A EP, IN FACT I’M CONVINCED THAT THEY HAVE ALL BEEN EP, AS MY CONSULTNAT BELIEVES THAT I HAVE NONE OF THE FINE LITTLE HAIRS IN MY TUBES THAT PUSHES THE FERTILISED EGG DOWN. BUT I HAVE BEEN LUCKY IN ONE WAY THAT THEY HAVE EITHER COME AWAY NATURALLY OR DISSOLVED INTO MY BODY AND I STILL HAVE 2 TUBES, I CAN GET PREGNANT BUT I CAN’T KEEP THEM AND I AM 38 THIS YEAR, I FEEL MY TIME IS RUNNING OUT AND I DESPERATLY WANT A CHILD. I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH HEARTACHE AND AM UNSURE HOW MUCH MORE PAIN I CAN TAKE, BUT THE BIGGEST PAIN IS WILL I EVER HOLD MY BABY.
LOVE TO ALL
MATSY X X