My 'Cervical Ectopic' Story

hi there everyone, have only just joined this site today. i got the link off of a group on facebook ‘i am an angel mummy and proud’.

this year i discovered i was pregnant with my 3rd child. at 6 weeks i was taken into hospital with bleeding and pains. i was scanned 2 days later, and was told that my baby was low and i should expect to miscarry at any time, and if not i should consider a termination as baby was adjacent to my previous section scar and that they didnt think my scar was stable enough to cope. i was scanned again at 10, 12 and 14 weeks. each time being met with surprise i hadnt miscarried, and told to expect it to happen. it was awful every slight niggle i thort that it was starting (ie never had a miscarriage so didnt know what t expect) i was still bleeding lightly off and on, every time i went to the toilet i was terrifed of a gush of blood. finally at 15 weeks i saw a consultant and was rescanned, she instantly informed me i was having a cervical pregnancy.

my partner and i sat in the waitin room 3 hours watching her and her colleagues researching cervicals on google etc. we then had a chat, and it was explained that i wouldnt make full term, at best 24 weeks, and that i would need a hysterectomy. i understood that unllike a uterus a cervix doesnt contract and stop bleeding and so they only way to stop me bleeding to death would be a hysterectomy. this was goin to happen whether i terminated there and then or carried on. we were sent home for them to do more research etc. i decided that if i was goin to have a hysterectomy either way i would continue the pregnancy. when i returned to the hospital they had spoken to various specialists and i was told no way could i continue. the further pregnant i was the more the risk to my life as your blood supply increases. also as my hospital had not seen a cervical pregnancy before, and only one consultant had in 1994 when she was trainin, they were unable to let me continue for not knowin what to actually do with me.

it was sprung on me to start my treatment right away. i had to have a feotocide injection to stop my babys heart, its a potassium injection done via my pelvis direct into babys heart. the drs had never done this on a baby younger than 24 weeks, and altho they injected into his chest cavity they missedhis heart and so i had to go back the next day and have it done again. it was hell it felt like it my babys way of not agreeing to th treatment. the following day th injection worked and i started my methotrexate. i then had to wait a month to have my baby removed as they said the longer before surgery the less they hoped i would bleed. there was a risk i would start bleeding myself, which did happen 3 weeks after the methotrexate. i was taken into surgery for ‘conservative’ treatment. i lost over 4 and a half litres on blood during surgery and they had made the decision to do a hysterctomy when i suddenly stopped bleeding myself. i was pretty ill after and kept in hospital for a week to recover. i had a balloon and bandage in my cervix to pressure the walls to stop bleeding when this was removed i started to bleed again and almost went back into surgery but just managed to avoid it.

a month last we had a cremation service for our son (paid for by our hospital) and we now have his ashes at home. its only been 2 months since my operation and altho im healed physically mentally im becomgin more screwed up every day. i talk to peple and its as if they think im making it up it all sounds so far fetched. aand i know im lucky people say to me u have 2 beautiful kids be thankful, and i really am, but i dnt need people reminding me! im not just really struggling with my emotions etc and so is my partner and we have both been referred for counselling.

sorry to rant ie just realised how much ive written! i just want to be able to have someone to talk to who actually understands instead of pitying me xx