Hi,
A short while after finding out we were pregnant with our second baby, I started with unbelievable pains around my tummy and back. We visited A&E who referred us for a scan with the EPAU.
The scan revealed the devasting news that the pregancy was eptopic.
Luckily we had caught it early and the baby was still very small, so I wouldn’t need to have surgery on this occasion although the option was still there if I wanted to take it.
The Dr’s and fantastic midwifes talked us though our options, methotrexate injection which would prevent the baby from growing any bigger.
I took the methotrexate injection, but I can’t say that was the easy ways out! I returned after say 4 and 7 but unfortunately my bloods hadn’t gone down as they would of liked, I had a scan what revealed the ‘mass’ were the baby was had actually grown. They think it was maybe bleeding into itself.
The pain had actually easied and I was feeling a little better in myself. But unfortunately I had to have another methotrexate injection and return for my bloods on day 4 and 7 again .
Luckily the second time around my blood had dropped by 17.5% I’m still in a bit of pain, but I’m hoping over the next week it will settle.
Now I feel like I’m in the clear it’s started to hit me that iv lost my baby, I know I was only 6 weeks and it wasn’t a ‘baby’ but it hurts.
I know if the baby had stayed in me it would of only caused me damaged but I can’t help to think I killed it by having the injections.
I also have a massive regret, that I didn’t have the surgery in the first place, not only to prevent all the back and forth to hospital but also so I could of had the baby out and at least said goodbye.
I think this sounds a little silly and I’m finding it difficult to speak to anyone about it.