I dont know where to start …
These last 3 days have been a blur
Started on Sunday evening with a sharp stabbing pain in my right side. I tried to ignore it for a few hours took paracetamol and went to bed. Woke up at 11.30pm pain was unreal went to hospital for answer but was met with being dismissed. Waited for a doctor who had little interest. Asked questions sent for an xray came back and started bleeding. Was told you were pregnant and now your having a miscarriage go home it will come away naturally. Confused went home and cried then the pain went away. The following day there was no pain no bleeding confused i called my GP surgery they said i needed to speak to Ep unit. Called them they advised me to come in the next day. Tuesday i went to the appointment calm. The midwife was amazing she checked and held my hand. Telling me it was an ectopic pregnancy and was bleeding needed surgery. My world crashed . So not only was I coming to terms with that past 24 hours now another shock.
I was put in the quiet room. Given booklets to read. I had no words. Mind blank. Told other half and switched off. Bloods were taken. It was 7 weeks. Within a few hours i had surgery. I am sore but empty.
I feel like im a failure
Hi Lost-04,
I am so sorry to hear you’ve suffered this ectopic pregnancy and loss. I know the scary situation that is a ruptured ectopic pregnancy.
We can never be prepared for how we will feel following a trauma such as this one. While we may begin to heal physically, there are still emotions which we will need to sort through as we recover. Your loss is still recent, and it’s very natural for emotions to surface at different times. Each recovery is unique, and at this time, rest and care are so important.
I found that journaling helped me collect my thoughts well enough that I could begin to express them to my partner and close friends. The Trust also believes in the power of talking therapies, and we offer a helpline (with contact number below), or you can email us. You may also want to inquire with your GP about referrals to a therapist. Speaking to someone who can help us hold and contain our emotions can be so beneficial.
Importantly, an early scan at around six weeks of gestation is available to help with future pregnancies. This is to check that the embryo is in the right place, and we suggest contacting your local EPU directly to book this when you next become pregnant.
You have been through massive trauma. These boards are a safe space for you and are filled with women and men who, unfortunately, have shared in a similar experience. We are here for you for as long as you need.
With good wishes,
Michele
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